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deadinsideforever

deadinsideforever

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Mar 31, 2021
30
I just feel like I can't go on, I had a few days where ctb wasn't the first thought of the day. I've had olanzapine teva added to my other meds, was starting to think I could wait to ctb until my son graduates uni next year but the urge to do it sooner is really strong. I feel like it could just be something I do on the spur of the moment. I just feel so hopeless.
 
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A Retarded Demon

A Retarded Demon

Gib Pancakes Plz
Jul 9, 2020
41
Have you tried going to a therapist? I know they aren't fantastic but then can help with the spur of the moment thinking
 
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orlandom

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Mar 4, 2021
514
I'm tired. Also.
 
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deadinsideforever

deadinsideforever

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Mar 31, 2021
30
Have you tried going to a therapist? I know they aren't fantastic but then can help with the spur of the moment thinking
Been there, done that. Tried so many different therapies. Nothing seems to work for long
 
A Retarded Demon

A Retarded Demon

Gib Pancakes Plz
Jul 9, 2020
41
Been there, done that. Tried so many different therapies. Nothing seems to work for long
The only other advice i could give would be try do something fun with your son try look at a holiday at least when this covid stuff is finally gone.
 
deadinsideforever

deadinsideforever

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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,838
Same. Tired is exactly how I feel. Existing is simply hard work. I would love to fall into an eternal sleep. I hope you can find some sort of relief.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I can relate.
Sometimes, I think I can actually try to keep on living for some more yeras and then ctb but some others I just wanna get the hell out of this blue rock impulsively.
 
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elfgyoza

elfgyoza

Cursed
Aug 5, 2019
326
Tired is definitely the way I'd describe how I feel too. Existing is so tiring, it's hard work. I'm too lazy to exist
 
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