Even as I tell someone that Im considering suicide again they lie to my face. They act like I don't know anything. They swear up and down that what I know isn't true or real, it's bullshit.
The fuckass therapist I can barely afford is useless. I get nothing from taking time out of my day to meet with her. I know I'm a horrible person and no one wants to admit it to my face. The one motherfucker who bothers to stick around insists that everything's great and cool between us despite so clearly being fed up with me. They probably even want to hurt me.
Pretending to like me is so much fucking worse than just saying it to my face because now I look like a paranoid schizophrenic making connections for things that aren't even there. i don't know what to do anymore
The fuckass therapist I can barely afford is useless. I get nothing from taking time out of my day to meet with her. I know I'm a horrible person and no one wants to admit it to my face. The one motherfucker who bothers to stick around insists that everything's great and cool between us despite so clearly being fed up with me. They probably even want to hurt me.
Pretending to like me is so much fucking worse than just saying it to my face because now I look like a paranoid schizophrenic making connections for things that aren't even there. i don't know what to do anymore
