This could be goodbye

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm leaving sasu but not planning on trying to ctb right this minute. All I have are old SN and violent methods. I'm torn between just doing the violent one or letting myself get permanently hospitalized and try to negotiate for Death with Dignity.

I really don't know what else to do. I hate this world and society. There's nothing for me here.

 

[rozeske]

I wish you the best in your journey and your future plans. I hope luck will be on your side this time round. Give my regards to that bitch if you find her.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I wish you the best in your journey and your future plans. I hope luck will be on your side this time round. Give my regards to that bitch if you find her.

Thanks, I'm hoping for the best too. Please message me if you can.
I'm probably going to take a nap before I make a decision

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best and good luck. I hope you make the right decisions for you and you can find peace.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I wish you the best in your journey and your future plans. I hope luck will be on your side this time round. Give my regards to that bitch if you find her.

Sorry about the confusion earlier. Luck definitely hasn't been on my side but she better be this time around. I feel completely lost and hopeless all the time.

I wish you all the best and good luck. I hope you make the right decisions for you and you can find peace.

I'm still not sure what the right decision is. I'm not sure if I'll ever know.

 

[1043169]

Be safe to do what you feel is right! I wish you best of luck.

 

[i dont feel real.]

You'll know what to do, I hope and know you will, because you are strong. I wish you luck.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

You'll know what to do, I hope and know you will, because you are strong. I wish you luck.

I don't feel strong at all but thank you.

I have a lot of stuff to get rid of before I'll feel ready to ctb in a few months. I found another hobby that temporarily makes life tolerable even though I still want to die. I'm not going to delete my account yet, but I'll come back to this thread if I feel ready. This isn't recovery, I'm just going back to the status quo of passive ideation again. Once I have something peaceful to use I can try again.