Thinking about you tonight.

[Sweetcheeks]

I'm thinking about you tonight, dear friend.
I know we both said and did things to each other that we wish we could take back.
You're gone now, and I don't know how to deal with the fact I might have been part of the problem.
I hope you found peace.
For me, I can't seem to find it.
I constantly hear death threats.
I believe them.
My mom died. I wonder if she's up there with you.
I know you two were close.
I'm so sorry. I just want you to know that I'm so sorry.
I miss you all the friggen time.
Life was better with you in it.
I am scared, believe it or not.
I'm tired of acting like I can get through this.
I don't want to. Not really.
I just want this pain, fear and anxiety to end.
I wish I knew what was wrong with me.
I don't think anyone can give me those answers.
I wish we had've taken the time to be sober around each other more.
You deserved that.
You deserved so much more.

 

[Griever]