I am fucking done. No matter what I do I stay a ghost to everyone. Kindness doesn't help at all. It get used and ignored. At this point I don't even know if I fucking suck or if its other people. I feel like I am about to puke.
I hate my life. I don't even know why I keep trying. I left the hospital weeks ago and now that I am back I feel miserable again. Nothing changed. I am still a ghost stuck in a room with people who don't give the slightest fuvk about me, but I am forced to stay for attendance. I don't seem to make any contact at all properly. No matter how hard I fucking try. I hate myself I hate my fucking like and I hate people. Everyone can fuck off. My efforts are for fucking nothing. So why not at least make destruction and have fun while doing it.
I hate my life. I don't even know why I keep trying. I left the hospital weeks ago and now that I am back I feel miserable again. Nothing changed. I am still a ghost stuck in a room with people who don't give the slightest fuvk about me, but I am forced to stay for attendance. I don't seem to make any contact at all properly. No matter how hard I fucking try. I hate myself I hate my fucking like and I hate people. Everyone can fuck off. My efforts are for fucking nothing. So why not at least make destruction and have fun while doing it.
