Venting There is nothing worse than feeling suicidal while life carries on around you

[zdeweilx]

I hate seeing beauty or happiness around me when I'm having a bad day filled with dark thoughts.

The sun feels too bright, laughter too loud, everything too alive. It's not that I want others to suffer, but I just can't relate to it.

Their ease makes my heaviness feel even heavier. When my mind is dark, joy feels misplaced, like it belongs to another world I can't access.

I hate the sounds of life carrying on when my will to die lingers so heavily in my mind.

 

[LonelyPrince]

I hate seeing beauty or happiness around me when I'm having a bad day filled with dark thoughts.

The sun feels too bright, laughter too loud, everything too alive. It's not that I want others to suffer, but I just can't relate to it.

Their ease makes my heaviness feel even heavier. When my mind is dark, joy feels misplaced, like it belongs to another world I can't access.

I hate the sounds of life carrying on when my will to die lingers so heavily in my mind.

Yeah, i get what you are saying.
It feels lonely.
Everything feels far away and out of reach: it's like being submerged underwater and hearing the muffled sounds and voices from the outside.
It sucks lol

 

[zdeweilx]

Yeah, i get what you are saying.
It feels lonely.
Everything feels far away and out of reach: it's like being submerged underwater and hearing the muffled sounds and voices from the outside.
It sucks lol

Yes exactly. I hate this feeling. I'd rather see sad people under a depressing grey sky.