the world is better off without me

[phantomt]

ive never been a good person. ive hurt others. my sadness only made me more self centered.
if i die people that were victims to this would have a peace of mind. im a horrible person
im not gonna die yet but hopefully soon i will.

 

[deadngoresurgery]

me too. im a piece of shit. i wanted to help people, but i fucking hurt others. in my quest to comfort others, i only ended up hurting them. i cant do shit right. i dont know if i can change, im pathetic.

 

[preachyflockk]

I don't want to sound like a pro lifer but when it comes to your actions, change is always an option

 

[Abort!]

Very few people on this plane of existence live up to the standard of "good" they hold themselves to. You're setting a very high standard for yourself which is, for a large part, contingent on factors outside of your control. At least this is how I see it. It's not a fair contest. It never was.

Even the few portraits of "good people" we hold in our minds are influenced by mixed motives. It's simply part of the human experience. So give yourself a break. In so much as desiring to be good, you demonstrate that the capacity exists. In feeling genuine remorse for your actions, you have the capacity for good just as much as you do for bad or "evil."

I'm not sure what else to say that can help... but this framing helps me to stop self-flagellating somewhat. We're all only human at the end of the day. Hope it helps. Best of luck.

 

[phantomt]

I don't want to sound like a pro lifer but when it comes to your actions, change is always an option

unfortunately ive tried that but even so, in my way on to change i hurt people too. thank you though