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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,014
The time between Christmas and the New Year is brutal.
The fake joy is over, the year isn't quite done yet, and everything you've been avoiding shows up at once.
Depression hits hard here.
Loneliness gets louder.
The pressure to "be grateful" feels insulting.
Nothing changed just because Christmas passed.
People struggle and die during this time not because they're weak, but because this stretch exposes how bad things really are... the bad in your life is exposed.
If you feel empty, numb, angry, or exhausted right now, that makes sense.
This time of year is isolating and heavy.
Not everyone is hopeful.
Not everyone is okay.
And pretending otherwise just makes it worse.

I hope this time ends me .
 
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conflagration

Experienced
Jul 29, 2022
215
The king is naked now, illusions are over.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,047
Trying to psyche myself up for hanging tomorrow. I'm sure I'll just doomscroll, jack off, and sit in the hot tub again. I've settled into my coping mechanisms
 
Ilovemycats

Ilovemycats

I feel like trash
Sep 26, 2025
49
I find New Year so cruel, it's as you said- depressing and lonely.

I honestly don't even understand how people can enjoy that day, not to mention the fireworks- They're pretty and nice but the screeching sound and amount of people gathering to set them off just makes me more depressed..

The time goes so fast, I don't even know how to enjoy anything. (*T^T)
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
251
People struggle and die during this time not because they're weak, but because this stretch exposes how bad things really are

This time of year is isolating and heavy.
Not everyone is hopeful.
Not everyone is okay.
And pretending otherwise just makes it worse.

I hope this time ends me .
couldn't have phrased these sentiments more aptly; this is such a true and primal horror of this time of year. all the fuckery of the world is thrown in our faces and we're meant to remain giddy.
i want this suffering to end
 
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cakedog

cakedog

waiting for the respawn
Dec 13, 2025
132
and everything you've been avoiding shows up at once.
Depression hits hard here.
Loneliness gets louder.
this is how i feel
i didn't even want to be alive for christmas and now i'm just waiting for another holiday i don't even want o take part in to end so i can ctb
i'm just a rotten corpse atp but hopefully it'll all end soon
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
806
I absolutely love New Year's. I party hard...then I crash and contemplate suicide after midnight. Wondering how the hell I'm still alive.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,528
That's so true. I've long felt uncomfortable this time of year. I think partly because I don't like Christmas or New Year and so, it's like the limbo period between two bad events.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,231
For me, the time frame you mentioned is from Thanksgiving to the day after New Year's Day.
 
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