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SadLoser

SadLoser

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Jul 31, 2021
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Every time I close my eyes, I feel a sharp pain in my heart. I curl up into a ball and that helps momentarily but then after a few seconds it once again feels like there's something cold and sharp piercing my heart.

I just want to be loved. I'm in my mid 20s now and I never experienced romantic love. It makes me feel so miserable and inadequate. People who are initially interested in me all lose interest very soon after getting to know me. I'm the common denominator. There must be something truly repulsive about me as a person for so many people to ghost/ distance themselves from me after getting to know me. It makes me so sad and furious at myself.

I always had trouble socializing, I was made fun of a lot when I was younger, and because of that I think my brain is simply damaged now. I cannot socialize with people. I'm awkward, i'm shy, i'm boring, i'm quiet. I don't talk much. And people hate this.

Women want a fun, outgoing, confident guy. I'm a total loser with almost 0 experience. Just a random vent. I know I won't be sleeping tonight because of this. I really liked this girl and I enjoyed our time together. I wish we could've been more, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I feel bad for wasting her time and I know I won't let it go and i'm going to make an even bigger fool out of myself in front of her before she stops being kind about it and tells me to f off.
 
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SadLoser

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Night is approaching. Lets see if i'll be able to sleep.
 
Pure Vanilla

Pure Vanilla

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Jun 4, 2025
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Rejection is painfully and it sucks to have to go through it, theres no real easy way to get over it or move on, but I hope you had nice dreams to distract yourself atleast. Hope you have a nice day tomorrow
 
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