Thank you guys for everything

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Hopefully I will successfully CTB tonight. I have already drunk 3 ounces of vodka. I have around 40 monkshood seeds, 6mg Xanax, 40mg Vicodin, 300mg DXM, and a ton of gabapentin. I promised myself that the next time I attempted, it would be the last time. If no one in your life cares about you, know that I do. You guys have shown more compassion to me than just about anyone I've ever met in real life and I'd be devastated if this site was shut down.

 

[abchia]

Best of luck

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Just took all of it including an unknown amount of gabapentin
Crushed up some datura seeds and ate them and also took an unknown amount of trazodone. I don't feel anything yet

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Safe travels and good luck. I hope you find peace.

How r u doing now?

 

[a.dream.of.a.dream]

Hello, how are you feeling?

 

[astr4]

i hope you manage to find some peace

 

[Chex]

Rest in paradise brother

 

[acey]

Just took all of it including an unknown amount of gabapentin
Crushed up some datura seeds and ate them and also took an unknown amount of trazodone. I don't feel anything yet

For me I pass out from just half a xan. Coupled with alcohol and sleeping pills I'd be a goner, wish I was there with you. Sending all my love hope it's either painless or just a tough hangover. We'll be here

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope you've found your peace from your anguish.

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Thank you guys for all the kind words. My dumb ass ended up panicking and calling someone. I did stop breathing and I ended up intubated for a while. If I called for help even a minute later I probably would have ended up with permanent brain damage. They pumped my stomach, thankfully I was knocked out and didn't feel a thing. It was not painful, I just felt groggy before passing out.
Got sent to the ward for about 10 days, returned back home to zero notifications on my phone as always. The world kept spinning without me. I regret calling for help. Going to order more seeds the second my parents get off my back.

 

[iamanavalanche]

Thank you guys for all the kind words. My dumb ass ended up panicking and calling someone. I did stop breathing and I ended up intubated for a while. If I called for help even a minute later I probably would have ended up with permanent brain damage. They pumped my stomach, thankfully I was knocked out and didn't feel a thing. It was not painful, I just felt groggy before passing out.
Got sent to the ward for about 10 days, returned back home to zero notifications on my phone as always. The world kept spinning without me. I regret calling for help. Going to order more seeds the second my parents get off my back.

im glad it wasnt painful for you. sending the biggest hugs right now ! we're here for you !