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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
417
Wondering if people experience what I experienced throughout most of the day. I would just wish I was already gone and plan a course of action (method in progress). Then moments later, could be minutes or couple of hours, I still feel like shit but better enough that I think "I'll give it another day/try".

It's actually very annoying and disrupts my line of thinking during work which makes me make mistakes that I beat myself up over it. Rinse and repeat until I get home and I'm still planning but thoughts aren't as random or chaotic.

It's hard to describe but wonder if anyone else had experienced this and what they did about it (if anything).
 
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lavenderlilylies

Student
Sep 24, 2024
126
It definitely comes in waves. For me it's stretched through weeks or even months where i'd be very suicidal and others where I'd still be as miserable, but just don't feel an overwhelming urge to ctb.
 
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