Venting Suicide if pregnant?

[cyanlove]

There is a very minuscule chance of me being pregnant and I just got my SN in the mail. I'm just so torn. Should I take a test to know? What if it is positive? I can't provide for a child I barely make above minimum wage in a part time job.

I'm probably going to take the test to put my mind at ease. It's likely negative. Ugh. Just needed to vent.

I took the test and it is negative!

 

[Crazy4u]

it is ok to vent. if it comes positive and you feel comfortable taking about it, let us know

 

[Depressed Cat]

Just because you received your SN, don't attempt to CTB impulsively. You need to carefully think it out and prepare for it, especially given that the method is SN. Take your pregnancy test by all means.

 

[Onthe29th]

Let us know what happens.

If you're pregnant check out the services available in your state for pregnant women or you can pm me and I'll help you look.

Birth rates have apparently declined in America, the fact of the matter is, most people can't afford to have kids right now so I understand where you're coming from but I think you should look up services and see what's available before coming to the conclusion that ctb is all that's left.

 

[cyanlove]

Just because you received your SN, don't attempt to CTB impulsively. You need to carefully think it out and prepare for it, especially given that the method is SN. Take your pregnancy test by all means.

Thank you. I'll try not to take it lightly. I've been planning this for awhile and it's just very irritating that something always seems to come up. I'm also currently testing my SN with my aquatic kit and it's not giving me good results.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Getting access to abortion pills is easier than ever now, in most developed countries that have legalised them. In many cases, you can even order them online, if the pregnancy is not too far along. The sooner you do find out, the less complicated or invasive it'll be. I don't want anyone to have to ctb over a forced pregnancy.

 

[cyanlove]

Getting access to abortion pills is easier than ever now, in most developed countries that have legalised them. In many cases, you can even order them online, if the pregnancy is not too far along. The sooner you do find out, the less complicated or invasive it'll be. I don't want anyone to have to ctb over a forced pregnancy.

The potential pregnancy isn't the reason at all that I wanna ktb but it does send a wrench in my direction

 

[cyanlove]

The test is negative!

The original plan to KTB is still on.

 

[Sherri]

Sorry you feeling so down, do you feel better now that the test is negative? Hope you ok. Hugs.

 

[cyanlove]

Sorry you feeling so down, do you feel better now that the test is negative? Hope you ok. Hugs.

I don't feel anything, really. It's not something I wanted but it's also something I didn't not want? It's just been hard to feel anything lately.

I was sort of hoping it was positive to see if that would maybe make me want to live? I come from an extremely catholic background and was curious if being faced with the dilemma would make me feel something at all.

 

[myopybyproxy]

My input is irrelevant as the thread has made its progress already. But the title provoked me to respond.

If I was pregnant I would want to die even more. Even if I was cisgender the short and long term physical and mental changes the embryo causes would be reason enough to decline any such 'opportunity'. I'm well on my way to incontinence without that 'help' of a foreign intruder. Furthermore, I believe it is unethical to bring life onto this godforsaken wasteland. There is already so much suffering. Those who want minions to brainwash can adopt or foster care. No need to forego contraception for that 18 year long ego trip.

Of course everyone will make their own decisions and have their own opinions. Whilst I may not agree, I can respect that as long as they don't try to change my perspective. I'm so tired of being told I'll regret it later, when I am older I will want kids so they can take care of me instead of ending up in a government run facility, etc. That makes the assumption I live to be an age when I will presumably experience said regrets. Thus far, my opinion has remained consistent throughout my entire life ever since I was cognisant enough to form one. I would not gamble on the odds of that changing, but then again I don't have gambling issues.

 

[Noctis]

I was sort of hoping it was positive to see if that would maybe make me want to live? I come from an extremely catholic background and was curious if being faced with the dilemma would make me feel something at all.

I also come from an extremely catholic background. In my experience, doing something that goes against my indoctrination just makes me hate myself.

Maybe it works be different with you, but I think (if I were able to get pregnant) a surprise pregnancy would push me over the edge.

 

[Istanbulite]

Abortion first? if positive.

 

[Worndown]

I don't feel anything, really. It's not something I wanted but it's also something I didn't not want? It's just been hard to feel anything lately.

I was sort of hoping it was positive to see if that would maybe make me want to live? I come from an extremely catholic background and was curious if being faced with the dilemma would make me feel something at all.

Starting a family does change your perspective. It would be best to find more stability, be it financial, family or health.
With a negative test you could still focus on those issues. To ctb really is the last option used when all others fail. I hope all goes well.

 

[blueclover_.]

Abortions should be legal. I say try to go for the hedonism lifestyle before you decide to go—most of us got nothing to lose after all.

Starting a family does change your perspective. It would be best to find more stability, be it financial, family or health.
With a negative test you could still focus on those issues. To ctb really is the last option used when all others fail. I hope all goes well.

And then the child carries the burden of life just because you want YOUR life to be better. Nice.

 

[cyanlove]

Abortions should be legal. I say try to go for the hedonism lifestyle before you decide to go—most of us got nothing to lose after all.

And then the child carries the burden of life just because you want YOUR life to be better. Nice.

The point is moot. I am not pregnant.

 

[blueclover_.]

The point is moot. I am not pregnant.

Good for you.