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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
274
I almost feel guilty of planning my suicide this week knowing it's before Christmas. Then again, I spent most holidays alone for the past decade. Including the upcoming one. Last year's holidays were absolutely brutal. Not only complete loneliness but I was cruelly kicked while I was down

Just for that ,I don't feel that bad about ending things before Christmas even if it may "ruin Christmas"
 
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soul2realm

Member
Oct 12, 2025
213
I almost feel guilty of planning my suicide this week knowing it's before Christmas. Then again, I spent most holidays alone for the past decade. Including the upcoming one. Last year's holidays were absolutely brutal. Not only complete loneliness but I was cruelly kicked while I was down

Just for that ,I don't feel that bad about ending things before Christmas even if it may "ruin Christmas"
Same here, only a bit sooner
 
Gangrel

Gangrel

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Jul 25, 2024
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You shouldn't have to feel guilty, it's your moment.
 
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zdeweilx

It's over
Dec 15, 2025
145
Who cares if you're going to spend the holidays alone. At least that's what I'm telling myself.
 
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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
274
Who cares if you're going to spend the holidays alone. At least that's what I'm telling myself.
I'm not dying because I'm spending the holidays alone lol. I'm pointing it out because I won't be missing anything nor will people "miss" my presence. But the news of my death my affect their christmas
 
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Bubba

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Nov 28, 2025
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If u are going to ruin holiday (not only this but those to come) for someone u care about don't. In other case it's yours and yours only to decide.
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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If u are going to ruin holiday (not only this but those to come) for someone u care about don't. In other case it's yours and yours only to decide.
Those to come? Wdym
 

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