Irisse
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- Sep 8, 2025
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There was this thread that I wanted to reply to and I instead got a message that my post is waiting for the mods' approval. I didn't use swear words, and I wasn't rude or harsh. Now I'm paranoid that I did something wrong.
And that's not the only instance of paranoia that I struggle with. In january the green light on my phone which signalizes the use of camera or microphone turned on by itself randomly and I heard clicking noises. I brought the phone to a phone repair shop and instead of explaining what was wrong in detail I was only told that it was a software problem.
It didn't happen again, but I'm constantly paranoid that someone is watching me on my phone camera.
I have no idea how that happened. I'm overweight, unattractive, didn't click any suspicious links, not a public figure etc.
I don't even know if I want any advice on this, I might become more paranoid if for instance someone explained that it can be done through Bluetooth or something. But paranoia might be what finally does me in. I don't want to live in a world that won't grant me privacy and anonymity. For the record, I got diagnosed with depression followed by psychotic elements but not schizophrenia.
I don't do anything illegal nor do I watch porn, but it's still uncomfortable to think that someone out there knows all about my preferences and looks out to capitalize off of it.
All I trust now is Death and SN. Even if every other problem got solved, the paranoia will forever stay.
And that's not the only instance of paranoia that I struggle with. In january the green light on my phone which signalizes the use of camera or microphone turned on by itself randomly and I heard clicking noises. I brought the phone to a phone repair shop and instead of explaining what was wrong in detail I was only told that it was a software problem.
It didn't happen again, but I'm constantly paranoid that someone is watching me on my phone camera.
I have no idea how that happened. I'm overweight, unattractive, didn't click any suspicious links, not a public figure etc.
I don't even know if I want any advice on this, I might become more paranoid if for instance someone explained that it can be done through Bluetooth or something. But paranoia might be what finally does me in. I don't want to live in a world that won't grant me privacy and anonymity. For the record, I got diagnosed with depression followed by psychotic elements but not schizophrenia.
I don't do anything illegal nor do I watch porn, but it's still uncomfortable to think that someone out there knows all about my preferences and looks out to capitalize off of it.
All I trust now is Death and SN. Even if every other problem got solved, the paranoia will forever stay.
