• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

Enigma25

Enigma25

The No Mad Nomad
Mar 19, 2025
74
I am still searching for a way that allows me to pass similarly to SN. I am a tenacious man, and I won't give up, but I am also open minded. It seems as if SN is borderline impossible to get in America in 2025. If that's true, what's the part that doesn't make it COMPLETELY impossible?
Is there a suitable or recommended alternative?

Also wanted to say, part of me feels that once I get my hands on whatever means to die I need, I won't actually do it. Yeah life sucks for me I feel, but I am open to feeling content knowing that I don't have to wait for death, death can wait for me. Maybe knowing I can end it whenever is gonna be enough for me to want to begin again. Until then, I really don't want to wake up tomorrow, and I'm disappointed knowing I likely will. I don't wish this on anyone, but I'm content.

If you know anything, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. I do want to ctb I DO. But I also know I can't predict the future. I'll exhaust all resources for help before I do it.
Please help if you can or let me know what I need to do to show you I'm serious.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: CynicalCyanide, joltik, anonymous2025 and 3 others
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,535
I really understand just wanting the option of a way to be free from it all, it feels so cruel to me how there isn't the option to just cease existing in peace in an guaranteed way. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: anonymous2025 and Enigma25
Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
Jul 1, 2024
582
I feel you :(
 
  • Like
Reactions: CynicalCyanide and anonymous2025
W

waitin2go

yungblud's "hello heaven" sparked hope for now
Apr 26, 2025
80
Depending on your budget, there's Nem (more info in the resources tab) but you'd have to travel to Peru for that (I haven't researched much about it coz it seems pretty impossible for me to get my hands on Nem)

Again, depending on your budget you could look up N² under the inert gas section (Nem is more similar to SN tho; but N² seems like an accessible alternative of you have the budget and technical know-how; again best to look it up yourself as I hadn't researched much either)

Having said all that, since you don't actually want to ctb yet, it's probably best to take your time on the resources section to go through all the methods - at the end of the day only you can decide what's best for you as it's highly subjective to the individual

I am still searching for a way that allows me to pass similarly to SN. I am a tenacious man, and I won't give up, but I am also open minded. It seems as if SN is borderline impossible to get in America in 2025. If that's true, what's the part that doesn't make it COMPLETELY impossible?
Is there a suitable or recommended alternative?

Also wanted to say, part of me feels that once I get my hands on whatever means to die I need, I won't actually do it. Yeah life sucks for me I feel, but I am open to feeling content knowing that I don't have to wait for death, death can wait for me. Maybe knowing I can end it whenever is gonna be enough for me to want to begin again. Until then, I really don't want to wake up tomorrow, and I'm disappointed knowing I likely will. I don't wish this on anyone, but I'm content.

If you know anything, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. I do want to ctb I DO. But I also know I can't predict the future. I'll exhaust all resources for help before I do it.
Please help if you can or let me know what I need to do to show you I'm serious.
 
Enigma25

Enigma25

The No Mad Nomad
Mar 19, 2025
74
Depending on your budget, there's Nem (more info in the resources tab) but you'd have to travel to Peru for that (I haven't researched much about it coz it seems pretty impossible for me to get my hands on Nem)

Again, depending on your budget you could look up N² under the inert gas section (Nem is more similar to SN tho; but N² seems like an accessible alternative of you have the budget and technical know-how; again best to look it up yourself as I hadn't researched much either)

Having said all that, since you don't actually want to ctb yet, it's probably best to take your time on the resources section to go through all the methods - at the end of the day only you can decide what's best for you as it's highly subjective to the individual
Hey this great. How would I get it back to the states?
 
W

waitin2go

yungblud's "hello heaven" sparked hope for now
Apr 26, 2025
80
How would I get it back to the states?
Hey sorry unfortunately I don't know, your best bet is the resources tab

(Quoting here again because today my mental energy is depleted)
I haven't researched much about it
it's probably best to take your time on the resources section to go through all the methods - at the end of the day only you can decide what's best for you as it's highly subjective to the individual
 

Similar threads

S
Replies
9
Views
394
Suicide Discussion
theboy
theboy
stinkbug
Replies
9
Views
475
Suicide Discussion
bhaloo
B
sick&tired
Replies
25
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
quietwoods
quietwoods
ambivalent_thespian
Replies
1
Views
233
Suicide Discussion
imtiredasf
imtiredasf
Unbearable Mr. Bear
Venting no
Replies
9
Views
400
Recovery
Unbearable Mr. Bear
Unbearable Mr. Bear