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[DTA]

Hello SaSu. I'm back, it would seem. I would have logged back on sooner but I've been rather depressed.

I hung myself as planned (partial suspension) a couple weeks ago, but could not lose consciousness. My head felt like it was going to explode, but I pushed through that. I got right to where I felt like I was about to black out, my senses dulled, but then I just stayed in that state.

I tried that same method two more times to the same effect.

I eventually attempted full suspension, hanging from a rafter in the garage. The same thing happened. I hung there, powered through the head-explodey feeling, but could not lose consciousness. I hung for over a minute until I could no longer bear the pain from the strain on my neck. I wrapped my legs around a nearby support beam and got enough slack on the rope to take it off. Had bruises around my neck for a while.

I've given up on suicide for now. At least until I can work up the courage to try a different method.

Thank you all for your support, my friends. At least for a while I'm here to support you all as much as I can.

 

[tanshakti]

Hello SaSu. I'm back, it would seem. I would have logged back on sooner but I've been rather depressed.

I hung myself as planned (partial suspension) a couple weeks ago, but could not lose consciousness. My head felt like it was going to explode, but I pushed through that. I got right to where I felt like I was about to black out, my senses dulled, but then I just stayed in that state.

I tried that same method two more times to the same effect.

I eventually attempted full suspension, hanging from a rafter in the garage. The same thing happened. I hung there, powered through the head-explodey feeling, but could not lose consciousness. I hung for over a minute until I could no longer bear the pain from the strain on my neck. I wrapped my legs around a nearby support beam and got enough slack on the rope to take it off. Had bruises around my neck for a while.

I've given up on suicide for now. At least until I can work up the courage to try a different method.

Thank you all for your support, my friends. At least for a while I'm here to support you all as much as I can.

Dear @DTA, sorry to hear about your ordeal. experts here have suggested with full suspension if done correctly you lose consciousness in 5-10 seconds if dont correctly, partial is hard, what do you think went wrong with FS.

 

[darksouls]

welcome back
I am so sorry for your suffering

 

[AreWeWinning]

Hello SaSu. I'm back, it would seem. I would have logged back on sooner but I've been rather depressed.

I hung myself as planned (partial suspension) a couple weeks ago, but could not lose consciousness. My head felt like it was going to explode, but I pushed through that. I got right to where I felt like I was about to black out, my senses dulled, but then I just stayed in that state.

I tried that same method two more times to the same effect.

I eventually attempted full suspension, hanging from a rafter in the garage. The same thing happened. I hung there, powered through the head-explodey feeling, but could not lose consciousness. I hung for over a minute until I could no longer bear the pain from the strain on my neck. I wrapped my legs around a nearby support beam and got enough slack on the rope to take it off. Had bruises around my neck for a while.

I've given up on suicide for now. At least until I can work up the courage to try a different method.

Thank you all for your support, my friends. At least for a while I'm here to support you all as much as I can.

I'm sorry your attempt didn't go as planned.

Full suspension is also my method of choice, and I'm one of those people who believes it should be very reliable and quick if done correctly. I'm very curious about what could have been the reason it didn't work for you.

Did you get drunk before the attempt? (You mentioned it in your goodbye post.)

Did you use the climbing rope you mentioned?

Did you use padding?

How did you position the knot? (e.g., back of the neck, on the side, or at the front)

How did you position the rope? (e.g., below or above the Adam's apple)

What specific knot did you use for the noose?

How high was the support, and did your legs not touch the ground when you stepped off?

An odd question, this one: Did you experience anything weird or paranormal? (Just asking out of curiosity, since you also mentioned having a "life filled with the paranormal".)

Don't feel pressured to answer these if you don't want to. However, if you're willing to share more details, that could be a learning opportunity for all of us.

Look at the positive side of it! You didn't suffer any serious injuries. :)