Sometimes you have too much damage. For the severely traumatized, suicide might be our only option

[Water-Lily]

I'm not here encouraging suicide

If you come from a severely traumatic background, healing is a worth endeavor

But I find that people only tolerate you if you have minimal trauma

Or trauma that is bad, but now "too" bad

For people like me that comes from horrifying childhoods, we're "too much" for most people

Even professionals

We're expected to survive, but if we admit our problems we're pushed aside

And if we die, we get fake tears and a shame response

We can't win, but we can be free

We don't have to suffer anymore

 

[Labyrinth]

If you are healthy, no matter how great the emotional trauma, it is always possible to overcome it. I would worry about bodily harm, which there is often no cure for.

Your sociological analysis is correct. Admitting our feelings is almost never an option.

 

[Water-Lily]

If you are healthy, no matter how great the emotional trauma, it is always possible to overcome it. I would worry about bodily harm, which there is often no cure for.

Your sociological analysis is correct. Admitting our feelings is almost never an option.

yeah. Its almost like society would rather we die out like a defective species

Maybe the world would be better off if people with severe trauma didn't exist

 

[animism]

The more work I do to heal my cptsd, the more I want to leave this place. I mean I've always wanted to leave because the abuse started when I was little but I really don't see things getting better if I unpack any more of it. I need a looooooooooong break from all this "healing"

 

[Water-Lily]

The more work I do to heal my cptsd, the more I want to leave this place. I mean I've always wanted to leave because the abuse started when I was little but I really don't see things getting better if I unpack any more of it. I need a looooooooooong break from all this "healing"

healing is such a scam lol

Tbh I dont' think the world would care if people with CPTSD and BPD died. They'd probably feel happy not dealing with our baggage and trauma response. It'd be a sort of relief I think

Like imagine living in a society where you just have mentally healthy people. No one with baggage to drag you down or hard to deal with

 

[tbroken]

I'm not here encouraging suicide

If you come from a severely traumatic background, healing is a worth endeavor

But I find that people only tolerate you if you have minimal trauma

Or trauma that is bad, but now "too" bad

For people like me that comes from horrifying childhoods, we're "too much" for most people

Even professionals

We're expected to survive, but if we admit our problems we're pushed aside

And if we die, we get fake tears and a shame response

We can't win, but we can be free

We don't have to suffer anymore

I don't know how much trouble you suffered, but trust me, normies make more mistakes than you might think. But i can understand you being ashamed, in many cases(like mine) is not even our fault, and more stupid are the people we meet along the way, harder it becomes to rise up.

 

[animism]

I agree completely. I wouldn't want to live in that "healthy" society either because even now I feel so outnumbered. Hey, I'm glad you're here, even if in just this passing moment I'm glad we are both mentally ill together.

 

[Water-Lily]

I don't know how much trouble you suffered, but trust me, normies make more mistakes than you might think. But i can understand you being ashamed, in many cases(like mine) is not even our fault, and more stupid are the people we meet along the way, harder it becomes to rise up.

but people accept the normies because they're normal.

But people don't like the traumatized but love the abusers

 

[animism]

healing is such a scam lol

Tbh I dont' think the world would care if people with CPTSD and BPD died. They'd probably feel happy not dealing with our baggage and trauma response. It'd be a sort of relief I think

Like imagine living in a society where you just have mentally healthy people. No one with baggage to drag you down or hard to deal with

I agree completely. I wouldn't want to live in that "healthy" society either though because even now I feel so outnumbered. Hey, I'm glad you're here, even if its just this passing moment I'm glad we are both mentally ill together.

 

[fuzzy-clown]

I'm severely traumatized but I can't leave since I have responsibilities
I try to keep busy and get through the days

 

[tbroken]

but people accept the normies because they're normal.

But people don't like the traumatized but love the abusers

The hardest part is to forgive ourselves, love ourselves and admit is a very difficult and strange world.
I made mistakes, but my life was really strange, so i forgave myself and that is the importanti thing. There are a lot of things you don't know, especially when you are young. Don't be cruel with yourself.

 

[strangelife]

It depends on the nature of the injury, mental injuries can be corrected and treated, unfortunately physical injuries can not always be cured and sometimes it gets so bad that life becomes not a joy and there is only one way out

 

[DeletedAccount0864]

But I find that people only tolerate you if you have minimal trauma

Or trauma that is bad, but now "too" bad

For people like me that comes from horrifying childhoods, we're "too much" for most people

Even professionals

We're expected to survive, but if we admit our problems we're pushed aside

And if we die, we get fake tears and a shame response

Oh how I'm familiar with this feeling... One thing that makes me furious thinking about my death is lies being told about why I did it. Nobody will ever know the truth, because nobody cares.

The more work I do to heal my cptsd, the more I want to leave this place. I mean I've always wanted to leave because the abuse started when I was little but I really don't see things getting better if I unpack any more of it. I need a looooooooooong break from all this "healing"

Same :(

 

[tbroken]

It depends on the nature of the injury, mental injuries can be corrected and treated, unfortunately physical injuries can not always be cured and sometimes it gets so bad that life becomes not a joy and there is only one way out

I understand you, i had a bad physical injury during youth and it really lovered my self-esteem.
When i finally helaed it, i started to live, but the scars remained and I made a lot of mistakes(i always forgive my self thinking it wasn't me).
The worst part is that it was someone elses's fault, so i was also full of hate, i was scared of doctors and I also lost a lot of time.
My passions and my strong brain brought me back to life, but still now i'm not totally mentally healed and I engage people with a lot of distrust.
I still wonder what could have been without that injury, but than i think that we all have our problems and I got mine too.
I even started smoking a lot in that period and lost a lot of opportunities. It is still hard to forgive who injured me and also to forgive myself.

 

[strangelife]

I understand you, i had a bad physical injury during youth and it really lovered my self-esteem.
When i finally helaed it, i started to live, but the scars remained and I made a lot of mistakes(i always forgive my self thinking it wasn't me).
The worst part is that it was someone elses's fault, so i was also full of hate, i was scared of doctors and I also lost a lot of time.
My passions and my strong brain brought me back to life, but still now i'm not totally mentally healed and I engage people with a lot of distrust.

I'm sorry, I'm glad that you managed to recover. I also had such a period 15 years ago, when I was recovering with great difficulty for a year after a spinal injury, but now I have been lying down again for 3 months and doctors cannot help me. If you have recovered, why are you here?

 

[WhatPowerIs]

It depends on the nature of the injury, mental injuries can be corrected and treated, unfortunately physical injuries can not always be cured and sometimes it gets so bad that life becomes not a joy and there is only one way out

at this point, not sure if all mental injuries can be corrected and/or treated... depends on the person ig

 

[tbroken]

I'm sorry, I'm glad that you managed to recover. I also had such a period 15 years ago, when I was recovering with great difficulty for a year after a spinal injury, but now I have been lying down again for 3 months and doctors cannot help me. If you have recovered, why are you here?

I was weak, the injury was serious(at least in my head) and in those dark times i made a lot of mess and mistakes: smoking a lot, get along with random or bad people, act like a stupid, don't interact and ask help to my parents(i like to solve my own problems).
When things in my life don't go so well, all those demons and mess return all to my head and this is mainly why I'm here.
I think the scars may be deeper than i thought or i just lost faith in myself.
I don't accept the fact that I lost control of my life for a period, I was just wandering without thinking and this have consequences.

 

[strangelife]

I was weak, the injury was serious(at least in my head) and in those dark times i made a lot of mess and mistakes: smoking a lot, get along with random or bad people, act like a stupid, don't interact and ask help to my parents(i like to solve my own problems).
When things in my life don't go so well, all those demons and mess return all to my head and this is mainly why I'm here.
I think the scars may be deeper than i thought or i just lost faith in myself.
I don't accept the fact that I lost control of my life for a period, I was just wandering without thinking and this have consequences.

I really understand you.

 

[voidstar]

The more work I do to heal my cptsd, the more I want to leave this place. I mean I've always wanted to leave because the abuse started when I was little but I really don't see things getting better if I unpack any more of it. I need a looooooooooong break from all this "healing"

Same. It just makes me want to leave even more.

 

[huzzahhue56]

Oh how I'm familiar with this feeling... One thing that makes me furious thinking about my death is lies being told about why I did it. Nobody will ever know the truth, because nobody cares.


Same :(

its actually one of the reasons why I don't want to cbt because I don't want people to misunderstand the reasons and I want people to know, and it makes me angry when people don't understand me. Also my abusers would lie to people and tell them misinfo and play the victim and it makes me also very angry and I want to be able to die in peace, now I can't even have that because there will be monsters lying to people about everything. I just want people to understand what happened so that they can prevent people from ending up like me and save them, I want nice things in this world and I want people to be happy and safe and not like me. If they don't understand then my death is in vain, I want to die because of the abuse I have suffered but also if people understand the reason they can look out for people getting abused and help them so that they don't end up like me