So far, this is working!

[NeverGoodEnuff]

I have finally recognized that the pain and suffering are Not My Fault. The self blame for the way others have hurt me was the worst of the worst and the times when I was closest to CTB were those times.

A week ago, I was having a text convo with two sisters. I was Slammed, did not see it coming. What I did see is that it was planned, intentional, and successful. I was floored! I blocked them.

There was an almost immediate sense of peace. I have always tried to maintain relationships with my family. After all, they are Family, right? When I very clearly saw their intentional meanness, selfishness, and hatefulness, which I had done nothing to elicit, that they are so used to me just taking it and turning it inward, I Quit.

"...And that has made all the difference." -- from the poem, "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost

Edit: i wish to change my name...to GoodEnuffForMe.

 

[timf]

"The truth will set you free"

Once you can get to the point where you can discern others who use language as a manipulative tool rather than for truth or accuracy, you can free yourself from feeling obligated to "dance to their tune".

Congratulations on your freedom. You may also find that this discernment can help you identify those others who also value truth and with whom healthy relationships can be built.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Good for you!! I think you may expect back what you give to others. And family..it sounds nice, but having the same blood doesn't automatically mean you (have to) get along.
This is your life, your choices, yours. Nobody else's!

I believe you're on the right way :)

 

[WhiteDespair]

You have the right to decide which people are in your life.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Today, not so good. Hanging on until tomorrow.