So it was the pink curing salt you tried? The failed attempt was likely more to do with the fact that it wasn't sn you ingested and less to do with your digestive issues or the method's drawbacks.
No. That's what I have now, because I keep hitting wall after wall trying to get the recommended amount. I can't believe how hard it is to die when I want to. I have had 8 cardiac arrests, and I seriously cannot die. I'm considering waiting until about 2-3am an just jumping off the bridge right by me. That, or train. Medication or anything else that could possibly be toxic enough to kill me, won't work for me because of my GI tract only working 10% of what it should. I always thought that was an advantage, but I see now it's not. Anything oral would be a waste of time. I can do full suspension hanging, because I'm staying in a hotel for an extended period of time right now, and the shower bar could probably hold a horse. I just need to know exactly how to set it up. I would use the cord to one of my blankets, cause they are very long and very strong. It should not be this hard to die. I wish I could get this physician assisted. I would qualify if it was actually legal where I am. I meet all the criteria & then some to be qualified for it. But, I can't get there. I hate this so much!!!! I want to die so bad. But, I want the people around me to feel so much darkness, regret, and anger because I did it. It's getting pretty late now, so I can increase the likelihood of being successful jumping off the bridge bc traffic will be close to zip. There are 2 bridges, side by side, but stand alone. One goes east, 3 lanes… the other goes west, 4 lanes. No high fencing whatsoever. A good majority of the bridges only have a 3 foot tall cement guards. That helps make it a lot easier and more likelihood of working. I would literally go about 1/3 of the way down, put my car in park, and just walk the 20 or so feet, and jump immediately. I'd be long gone by the time someone figured out what happened, which will obviously have surveillance, so the video will speak for itself.
I cannot believe that I can't just get a peaceful passing under my terms. But, it seems impossible
