So I got confirmation that my SN has shipped….. Have a tracking number but too early to see an estimated delivery date. Hope it doesn't get flagged at the post office or get me a wellness check. Hopefully it is the right stuff and purity.
I don't know how I feel. On one hand I feel relief that I might have my out. But then scared of the finality of it…. if I don't fuck it up that is…..
Worried about throwing it up. I don't have meto currently but trying to get it though my PCP which I have an appointment a few days before my CTB date. I do have acid reflux and possible GERD so hopefully can get it prescribed. I also don't have benzos but I have lunesta propanol and expired hydroxine. Hoping those could work.
I'm numb. And don't know what to think….. I'm scared of failing, scared of being successful, scared of the actual process and what comes after death. Feeling guilty for my daughter but she wants nothing to do with me and will be better off without me anyway. Yes I'm an asshole….. but she has a new mom anyway.
Sorry for the rambling. Wondering if anyone can relate….
I don't know how I feel. On one hand I feel relief that I might have my out. But then scared of the finality of it…. if I don't fuck it up that is…..
Worried about throwing it up. I don't have meto currently but trying to get it though my PCP which I have an appointment a few days before my CTB date. I do have acid reflux and possible GERD so hopefully can get it prescribed. I also don't have benzos but I have lunesta propanol and expired hydroxine. Hoping those could work.
I'm numb. And don't know what to think….. I'm scared of failing, scared of being successful, scared of the actual process and what comes after death. Feeling guilty for my daughter but she wants nothing to do with me and will be better off without me anyway. Yes I'm an asshole….. but she has a new mom anyway.
Sorry for the rambling. Wondering if anyone can relate….
