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Goyasan

Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
53
I was SO close. I had found a decent, legitimate source on the clearnet but they won't ship because "it's not allowed to ship toxic compounds to the USA anymore" (<- their words) which I don't even know is actually true! This is the worst, I was this close! This fucking close! I tried sending another email saying I would pay extra for it and that it should be fine but they haven't responded.

I'm so angry but so heart broken at the same time. What do I do??? I guess it's back to searching and sleuthing again. Fuck me.
 
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Goyasan

Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
53
I see the law mentions SN, but it doesn't mention anything about KN. Would that work?
Yeah, I think it would. It seems a little bit more feasible at this point too, now I just need to find a decent source.
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
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In my country buying sn is restricted as you need a poison license, but I can buy it from online sources who ship internationally
I was SO close. I had found a decent, legitimate source on the clearnet but they won't ship because "it's not allowed to ship toxic compounds to the USA anymore" (<- their words) which I don't even know is actually true! This is the worst, I was this close! This fucking close! I tried sending another email saying I would pay extra for it and that it should be fine but they haven't responded.

I'm so angry but so heart broken at the same time. What do I do??? I guess it's back to searching and sleuthing again. Fuck me.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,013
I really understand, it's just such terrible, extreme cruelty to me how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are made illegal like this, all that these people do is cause way more pain, suffering and torture, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just find peace from this torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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nintendo64

mr. kill myself
Dec 19, 2025
72
I'm sorry. It's so frustrating how hard it is to get a pain free method, all it's doing is forcing people to suffer more in their final moments. I have a source for it if you'd like, but you will need to use tor. Best of luck.
 
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Goyasan

Ah'm tryin' my best!
Nov 24, 2019
53
I'm sorry. It's so frustrating how hard it is to get a pain free method, all it's doing is forcing people to suffer more in their final moments. I have a source for it if you'd like, but you will need to use tor. Best of luck.
It's alright. I've accepted that in order to have an easy death, I'm going to work hard for it. I've tempted hanging, but I'm not sure how to go about it as I can't seem to press on my artery. I'm tempted, but I've never used TOR or the Dark Web in general and to be honest, I don't want to do something that would unintentionally harm my family further than me CTB'ing. I apologize if it's rude, but is your supposed suggestion safe?
 
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Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
345
Fuck the government. I hope they all d**
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
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I took a look at the bill. Without knowing anything about this, I would say this has a good likelihood of passing. People who vote against it would look like they are not in favor of protecting children. This is a very anti-CTB country. Anyone voting against this bill would be seen as being in favor of letting people take their own lives and they would almost certainly face a primary challenger next election. It looks like we are about to lose a painless, easy way to CTB. All thanks to this House Representative from Massachusetts.
 
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Realgar

Member
Aug 19, 2024
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I keep kicking myself for not ordering it 2 years ago when I first heard about it. Maybe there are suppliers who have not heard about this yet and will ship? Is it law yet? If it is not law then some places may ship?
 
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AH23

Everythingisnothinh
Jun 10, 2018
43
I don't think this has gone into full effect yet. I think there's probably a couple places where we might be able to get it still if we all gather together and try has anyone found anything out in the last 11 days?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
501
I don't think this has gone into full effect yet. I think there's probably a couple places where we might be able to get it still if we all gather together and try has anyone found anything out in the last 11 days?
Lol I just bought some with no problems. I'll be testing it tomorrow to make sure it's not too good to be true.
I took a look at the bill. Without knowing anything about this, I would say this has a good likelihood of passing. People who vote against it would look like they are not in favor of protecting children. This is a very anti-CTB country. Anyone voting against this bill would be seen as being in favor of letting people take their own lives and they would almost certainly face a primary challenger next election. It looks like we are about to lose a painless, easy way to CTB. All thanks to this House Representative from Massachusetts.
But it isn't painless.
 

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