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Ryan.s

Ryan.s

Experienced
Nov 29, 2019
224
Hello my friends. I sincerely apologize for taking up space on the list of threads. Others are far more in need than myself. I guess I just feel as though I want someone there as I die. If you know me from my hanging threads you know that I would commonly state my procedure and everything I was doing. I suppose I was doing that as a means of making it feel like you guys were with me. We are all family on here. And as morbid as it may or may not be... we are here for each member of our family as they die. We have lost so many people that have contributed to this site in amazing ways Jean, Stan, I might as well not even list because the list goes on. I wish I could have given you all more or provided more value to you all on this site. I love all you guys. I said I felt as though this was my week in a previous thread, and I think today is the day. I'm really sad. I think I'm going to take my 30 mg of SN (I do have the other supplies suggested) I have a way of backing out of my suicides. My brain always finds some way of finding hope, and then leading me to say I'll kill myself later. I'm just really sad right now and in a good mindset (I'm really ruminating on how horrible this world is). I want to thank everyone on this site. Known or unknown. You're all known to me and you all contribute something. God, this site is beautiful. I might die tonight, I might not. I may just be loosing my mind...

I love you all. Best warm wishes

Ryan, the man with the plague doctor mask :)
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,492
Hope you don't. Your posts are interesting. But it's your choice.
"this site is beautiful " : yes it is.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,820
I don't think it's a big deal for you to post this thread. Post as many as you want. If this is your last day in this world, then you will be missed, but good luck going through it if that is what you really want to do. If you change your mind about it and do it later, there is no harm in that.
 
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Arrow

Rewrite
May 1, 2020
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dog read my pms
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
553
We're all here for you, my guy :heart: Im so sorry that you're hurting
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
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We are here either way. I'm so sorry you are considering such things. You will be missed. :heart:
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Illuminated
Feb 13, 2020
3,232
Im so sorry you feel the need to go...

Go with the light my candle brings.. Just for you
 
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Tintypographer

Tintypographer

I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
Apr 29, 2020
470
Just to let you know, I love the plague doctor mask. You also do great posts and I enjoy reading them.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
How are you? Are you here?
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
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How are you feeling ? Wondering what you're thinking
 

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