Discussion Since joining this forum, have you felt any improvement or worsening in your mental health?

[sla_porra22]

Well, my experiences here have been good. But in the beginning, I remember being afraid to post and be judged, lol. These days I've started using it more actively, and I think the simple act of speaking here helps me to keep my mental health in a not-so-bad state. One thing I find really cool is that no one has ever tried to convince me to do something I wasn't already willing to do. I think that's something I didn't expect when I joined

 

[CatLvr]

I am better. Much better. A completely different person, in fact. I hang around because this place saved my life, literally, and I feel it is only right that I try and return that "favor" if you will. My heart breaks for each and every person here who still hurts and if I can comfort someone, or help them feem better, it seems like the least I could do

 

[doomedbynarrative]

It goes up and down. The forum has no bearing on it. It's just a place where I can be honest.

 

[sla_porra22]

I am better. Much better. A completely different person, in fact. I hang around because this place saved my life, literally, and I feel it is only right that I try and return that "favor" if you will. My heart breaks for each and every person here who still hurts and if I can comfort someone, or help them feem better, it seems like the least I could do

I'm happy for you manI'm happy when I see reports from people who felt better here. And I thought it was really cool of you to keep coming back here to try and help more people :) I wish you all the best.

 

[vitbar]

Mixed for me. The shared misery has both played into my depression and made me feel less alone. Sometimes my planning and generally obsessing about self destruction is itself an act of self harm stemming from self loathing. It burns to think about so I keep putting my hand in the flame.

 

[EternalShore]

This forum has helped me feel quite a bit better in my time here~ :) A lot of that has been due to not really being able to feel jealous for the people here where I could find myself doing so on other sites~ however, tbh, the biggest factor in me generally feeling better than when I first joined is my bf~ <3 I understand that I'm quite literally reliant on him tho, so it's a bit nerve-wracking to say the least~ >_< I should stop thinking tho~ I can make myself depressed in like 5 seconds by doing that~ >_<

 

[Arvayn]

I don't think it's had any strong bearing on my mood, but if I really had to say, I think I'd say it's only been a benefit. I have met many interesting individuals here, learned a lot, and seen a rare side of humanity that is seldom expressed in today's society. Death, tragedy and misery, but also hope, resilience and self-honesty, all messily combined into a melting pot of experiences. What keeps me here is how this social space is unlike any other.

 

[fadedghost]

no

i'm less lonely about being suicidal

but just as suicidal

it's like i'm still constantly screaming on the inside, but now someone is also giving me an occasional metaphorical xanax that lasts for an hour or so.

 

[Karrikin]

Well, my experiences here have been good. But in the beginning, I remember being afraid to post and be judged, lol. These days I've started using it more actively, and I think the simple act of speaking here helps me to keep my mental health in a not-so-bad state. One thing I find really cool is that no one has ever tried to convince me to do something I wasn't already willing to do. I think that's something I didn't expect when I joined

Its up and down honestly. I never get the chance to be so open and talk so freely about how I actually feel, and most of the people here are nice which has somewhat proven me wrong in thinking everyone hates me. I'm glad it's done some good for you though.

 

[trying ungracefully]

Improvement. I joined on two different accounts a while ago with the intent to die and figure out methods. I wasn't looking for recovery and I was really depressed.

Now I am only looking at the recovery and off topic sections and I am improving. I feel more like myself again and not like depression has taken over Things still aren't great and need a lot more improving for me to feel better but I am definitely in a better spot now.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Dark Moon]

It's about the same, maybe worse because I feel I'm coming up to my death the older I get.

 

[assassinlord82]

ive felt neither, but i hoped itd make me feel worse

 

[itsgone2]

No to either but I'm probably not a good example. It's a safe space at least.
But it can't change my past. Or give me the guts to buy a gun and do the terrible things I need to do. Hh
Sometimes people can be offensive but idk we're all mental so it's probably not intentional. It also serves to remind of the many times I said terrible things in my life, and to try not to do that in the short time I have left.

 

[Forveleth]

Neither really. My mental health has shifted but not really in a way that could be classified as "better/worse". Also this mental shift has nothing to do with this site.

I will echo what others have said in that this place is a nice haven to be able to broach the topic of suicide without getting a barrage of empty platitudes. It has definitely made my existence more pleasant as I move towards my end.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I joined this forum when the country where I live was in a COVID-19 lockdown; I was off work and my desktop computer had broken down, so it gave a unique chance to join Sanctioned Suicide. When I first joined this forum it gave a huge feeling of relief, because the community gave the chance to express beliefs that I had held (and still hold) that I would otherwise have to stay silent about... it was awesome! Between playing on old video game consoles and talking to people on Sanctioned Suicide I felt... happy? so this community definitely helped to improve my mental state.

Now that we are in the year 2026 I feel different. Not necessarily in a negative way, but just not as excitable. I think this is because over the last 2-3 years I have gained a few more problems in my life, and expressing thoughts does not give the same feeling of relief as it did when first joining.

 

[FoxSauce]

The same but not beacuse of here. Is nice to learn about other peoples struggles and how to talk about deep dark topics without scrutiny.

I love that people can also talk non suicide things too. Ofc ig thats what off topic is for.

Also support for those who are in crisis
I wont lie sometimes here disscusions can get out of hand but nothing too major.

I still feel that if I do a post or vent, I'll feel ill still be hated or judge negativly but sometimes that can be just me.

 

[jonoldak]

I feel noticeably better when I visit SaSu, but it doesn't really help me cope with the numbness. I feel like a gray mass with lost ambitions, that everyone around me has abandoned me, except for my insolent guardians...