two weeks ago I posted this thread essentially saying that although I was in a good mental state, I knew things would get worse. Shocker, they have :D
I binge ate for the first time in a while. I've always struggled with committing to self harm of various forms but my recent thoughts about my body + the binge eating episode led me to force myself to give myself fairly deep scratches on my arm with the undernail cleaner side of my nail clipper and force myself to throw up a few times. Sounds pretty amateur, but I've never taken things this far relating to SH. My esophagus hurts :(
The only thing that brings me a bit of comfort is the fact that I already have SN and all the other materials that come with that method, as well as a date picked out. Maybe my SH will get more severe before then. Maybe I'll chicken out and not follow through even if things haven't gotten better by my date of choice. I guess we'll see
I binge ate for the first time in a while. I've always struggled with committing to self harm of various forms but my recent thoughts about my body + the binge eating episode led me to force myself to give myself fairly deep scratches on my arm with the undernail cleaner side of my nail clipper and force myself to throw up a few times. Sounds pretty amateur, but I've never taken things this far relating to SH. My esophagus hurts :(
The only thing that brings me a bit of comfort is the fact that I already have SN and all the other materials that come with that method, as well as a date picked out. Maybe my SH will get more severe before then. Maybe I'll chicken out and not follow through even if things haven't gotten better by my date of choice. I guess we'll see
