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HoleintheDark

HoleintheDark

Writhing with the worms
Jul 12, 2023
35
I guess for context: I have a really bad skin condition that basically guarantees I'll be permanently scarred and disfigured all over my body by my mid 20s.

I used to sleep almost all the time bc then I can't feel any pain. But in the past year I've been having nightmares at least once or twice a month, nightmares about my skin and body. I feel maggots writhing under my skin, tearing me open and spilling out everywhere, and I wake up feeling itchy all over. I just can't get a break. I'm so scared of having dreams in my sleep, I don't want anymore nightmares that make me want to vomit.

I hate my body so much, I wish I could just peel all of my skin off just so I can stop feeling so disgusting and hurt.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,602
That must be so horrible what you have to endure, existence is just too cruel.
 

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