These past few months, actually no. This entire year has been Hell. 2025 began so amazingly. The girl I wanna marry was beside me and everything was perfect.
It's now October 2025 and life is miserable and I wanna go. She's gone. The girl I thought I'd be with for the rest of my life is gone. She said we can't be together right now. I miss her everyday. I'm still very much in love with her. I cry everyday and every night. I pray she'll come back and I overthink about her possibly with someone else and the pain becomes unbearable.
I know it's not a good idea to depend on someone else for my happiness but oh well. She's the only person on this planet that made me smile. She made everything better. Now that she's gone, I feel like I am too. I ask God to take me away if I can't be with her. I pray I go to sleep and never wake up. I can't do this without her. I refuse. I can't take this pain. I just can't. There's no point to keep going if my person isn't by my side.
It's now October 2025 and life is miserable and I wanna go. She's gone. The girl I thought I'd be with for the rest of my life is gone. She said we can't be together right now. I miss her everyday. I'm still very much in love with her. I cry everyday and every night. I pray she'll come back and I overthink about her possibly with someone else and the pain becomes unbearable.
I know it's not a good idea to depend on someone else for my happiness but oh well. She's the only person on this planet that made me smile. She made everything better. Now that she's gone, I feel like I am too. I ask God to take me away if I can't be with her. I pray I go to sleep and never wake up. I can't do this without her. I refuse. I can't take this pain. I just can't. There's no point to keep going if my person isn't by my side.
