Venting She left me. I'm happy. I am a burden.

[bugfriendly]

She's gone. Her smile was the only thing that has kept me hanging on to this reality by a thread. For a decade she has been my reason for waking up each day. No matter how much I was hurting, I could always keep going because that would mean I would see her again. Her presence made me feel whole. When I wasn't with her I would lose my fucking head every time but she would always come back to put me back together. I hope she is happier now. I am a burden. So I'm glad. But even so this anguish is my signal to let go. She's rid herself of me and now I must do the same. I am so lucky to have spent my time with her.​

 

[Empty Smile]

Thanks for that. Hits the nail on the head, except mine left the world without me.

 

[bugfriendly]

Thanks for that. Hits the nail on the head, except mine left the world without me.

Very sorry to hear this. Hopefully they are waiting for you out there somewhere.

 

[Memento Mori]

i wouldnt be that sure about that anguish is a signal that its time to ctb. pain is evolving

other than that i share your thoughts and i hope all of this will make sense for us some day so we can ctb, smiling and fully accepting that "new" reality, like we're heading for

 

[Iceangel]

Very relatable, sorry you ended up here. At least our better halves are better off, yeah?