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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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I read somewhere that sometimes (though of course not in all cases) self harm is a sort of preparation or 'building up to' ctb - you build up some tolerance to pain, you 'teach' yourself how to inflict harm on yourself, you become a little bit 'braver' (for want of a better word) each time. I've started to self-harm a little for the first time in well over ten years & I only ever did a couple of small times before- once as a teen and again in my twenties - I'm wondering if I am unconsciously trying to build up nerve to harm myself or whether it's just because of the turmoil I am now in...
 
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realjunes

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Why not both? Considering what you have been through..
 
MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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Why not both? Considering what you have been through..
yeah that true-im having violent thoughts towards myself- but am kinda too 'sane' to do them - also just enough of me knows that I could just end up very badly injured or locked up somewhere-it's horrible to have those thoughts all the time though
 
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