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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

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May 29, 2020
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I plan to CTB in about 1-2months via SN, once lockdown restrictions are lifted and my family will be able to hold a proper funeral(currently only 10 people are allowed to attend funerals here due to covid)

I plan on seeing the guy I started dating a few times before then(haven't seen him in a few months because of lockdown) I really fell for him and feel guilty that he won't know what's coming :(

Can anyone else relate? Who do you plan on spending time with before ctb?
 
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living.berliner8

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May 28, 2020
31
I'm spending my last days with my family. I live with them so it's not like I really have a choice, but thats what I would want anyway.
Hopefully these last days will be full of laughter and joy, and that their last memory of me will be a happy one.

I completely relate to the guilt part, that's one of my biggest concerns in terms of my cbt. I wish I could go without causing my loved ones to hurt... but that's just how things are.
 
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CAH

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May 22, 2020
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I feel the same way but have isolated myself and am hesitant to go see them. If I were able to feel joy with them I would not CTB :)
 
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