Scared

[AlePizarnik]

I'm really scared. I don't want to live. I don't want to die. I mean living means to eventually die. Who knows how I will die. I rather die being euthanized painlessly.
Why do I have to go through this? I don't want to struggle. I don't want anything. I never asked any of this. I don't want to be a "brave warrior". I don't want to be remembered. I don't want to live and die painfully. I want to quit. I want an easy way out. I never signed up for this. I don't care that you're better than me because you "are happy and brave". Good for you.
For gods' sake let me quit. Please.

 

[Thanatos]

The lesser of two evils. That decision is yours alone I'm afraid but I'll support you either way. I wish euthanasia was available to the mentally ill

 

[alexithymia]

Both life and death are existential nightmares.

 

[Ἡγησίας]

Alejandra was at that same tesiture during many years I guess, till she finally took her decision.