This boy ruined my life. He took advantage of my sexual naivety, manipulated and gave me an incurable disease. I must admit that it is my fault; I played a significant part in allowing him into my life, and for that, I will always have an insurmountable amount of regret. I will never know a moment of peace because of this boy. It sucks because I was doing so well. I was recovering from my depression and suicidal ideation. Now I'm not even sure if I want to continue onwards. My life is ruined. He has ruined me. The first person I decided to let into my heart manipulates me, uses me and dumps me with this disease. He made me believe that all of it was my fault; it wasn't until I had a therapy session that I realised he had manipulated me into thinking all of it was my fault. He didn't even tell me that the last girl he was with was sent to a clinic for the same reason; he only told me after he ruined me. When I told him the news, he even accused me of "being born with it." All of this happened a few months ago, but every time I wake up, I keep reliving the moment. I just can't continue onwards. I feel devastated that I have to leave my family behind, but I am not at peace.
I'm not posting this for sympathy; no amount of sympathy could ever heal me. No amount of sympathy could ever turn back time, so I can keep him out of my life. My heart is so heavy, and I want to die.
Do not wish for love, it will not save you.
I'm not posting this for sympathy; no amount of sympathy could ever heal me. No amount of sympathy could ever turn back time, so I can keep him out of my life. My heart is so heavy, and I want to die.
Do not wish for love, it will not save you.
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