Venting Ruined christmas

[ScaredtoTry]

Just a vent

Been severely depressed the last year and last month I decided that I think this will be my last Christmas. Went over to family to exchange gifts and have a nice meal, but I just kept starting to cry so I tried regaining composure in the bathroom. Had to do that a few times and family picked up on it.

I wanted my last Christmas to be happy surrounded by family but instead I hid in the bathroom crying like the fucking failure I am

 

[noroominthishell]

also spent christmas crying/trying not to cry. tried to just not speak much to anyone but i'd still start sobbing in the middle of nowhere so i had to take a benzo to look minimally normal; i'm sorry you didn't have that privilege. it's over now, at least