Regrets/ruminations

[Nem]

Like some others on here, I am swamped by regrets/ruminations. Is this common with most people here? I regret so fuckin much it's unreal
Peace/hugs

 

[AsexualBarbieBoy]

Not really regret because I usually have reasons for the things I do or don't do. I do, however, struggle with guilt, shame and humiliation regarding some of the outcomes of my actions.

 

[Mr2005]

I regret everything since 2004

 

[Xaphous]

Regret spending all my 20s isolated, but I know there was nothing I could have done, too traumatised from other previous pathetic abusive years

 

[Final Escape]

There's not much in my life I don't regret lol! It's bad. I mean it was basically all wrong like everything I did up to now and still.

 

[Trainwreck]

I just regret wasting time doing dumb stuff. I have OCD, so I spend a ridiculous amount of time organizing, making lists, and whatnot. I've also always had a compulsion to get the unfun stuff done first, so that I can later fully enjoy the fun stuff. Problem is, I rarely got to the fun stuff. So many great books unread, fun games never played, and hobbies never done. And now that I'm getting close to the end? What little energy I have I'm devoting to...dumb stuff. I'm freaking organizing computer files and closing online accounts I haven't used in years (or locking them down with impossible passwords for the stupid places that won't let you close your account). It's utterly ridiculous how I waste time!

 

[Wayfaerer]

It's all I have left anymore.

 

[SheJumped]

Guilt, shame and humiliation, I replay past events in my head over and over. Regrets none, just misery.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Absolutely
Regrets are poisoning my mind
I have so many
I wasn't smart, I wasn't brave
I did do many mistakes
They are haunting me almost every day

 

[Astral316]

Regrets are like fuel for the bus I'm going to catch.

 

[Stan]

Yes is the short answer and would copy most of the responses above with how I feel

 

[mynameispaige]

I regret every decision I've made since I was about 12. I feel like I've completely let my childhood self down. I destroyed her life. I wanted to grow up so bad and now I'd do literally anything to go back.

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

Holy shit I wake up in the middle of the night more often than not with regret about random events that occurred as long as 35 years ago when I was 10 years old. The psychic pain it causes, the feeling of regret over events so long ago, is astounding.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I regret not killing myself when I had planned to which was in September 2018. I had the rope and I knew where I was going to hang myself. Yet, instead, things happened and I ended up staying alive for the one person I love, the one I'm hopelessly waiting for. I'm truly an idiot.

 

[k75]

Holy shit I wake up in the middle of the night more often than not with regret about random events that occurred as long as 35 years ago when I was 10 years old. The psychic pain it causes, the feeling of regret over events so long ago, is astounding.

I thought I was the only one who does crap like this! It's awful.