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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
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thanks to the man who recommended me Dianabol and Testo... I continue feeling good, plus im getting stronger, smarter, active, im working better, studying for a job improvement and interview, and working on a side project which I will start soon.
plus theres a girl I like, but how can I say her, "hey, four month ago I was suicidal... I got N in my fridge... but im okay now... and no, im not selling, throwing or getting rid of my N, just in case"

I believe a sane girl would run away if she knew the truth,
in this case, I dont even need to tell her the truth,
she's not responding properly anyway LOL
but I bought her a 1kg (two bags, of chocolate Truffles at Costco, which are delicious by the way!)

im doing good,
I move away from home, three years ago, because I found a job opportunity,
and being away from home would be a good experience for my family
I was 33 years old, living in my parents house, and I did not left my room in the whole day,
I was a NEET for a long time,
but not so long, I used to make my own tamarind candy at my mom kitchen
and I sold tamarind candy on the street, well, tamarind pulp.

but today I return to coding and programing for the corporate world, and I feel strong.
Recovery week 16 or 17, who's counting now anyway...
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
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You're an inspiration for me. I think I should give my aircraft maintenance trade school interview a go. Your story prodded me to take that leap. I don't know I'll pass the interview though, but this will be a big step for me; I've been a NEET since 18 years till now. Now I kinda don't mind failing coz I always have ctb as a choice, to take the bus peacefully. Thank you so much for the update.
 
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