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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Does this motivate anyone? Sometimes I see suicide as a way to keep or regain my honor. It says, "I will not accept this!"

"I would never do what I did. I would never say what I said. I'm better than this and would have lived a very different life."

Sort of a sepukku kind of motivation. Suicide proves that I see myself as unacceptable, and thereby ties me to a higher perspective. The one [who] kills me is more worthy of respect than the one who lives like this.
 
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anhedonic_moron

anhedonic_moron

weather outside is delightful
Mar 20, 2025
62
in a way, it is more motivating, like a sort of "fuck you" to everything and everyone.

The one that kills me is more worthy of respect than the one who lives like this.
something about this, is something..... don't know how to describe it
 
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Jadeith

Mage
Jan 14, 2025
568
My..... dignity? Apologies but i do not remember having any.
 
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InevitableDeath

InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
293
This is truth.

Its a fuck you to every scum person who accepts society as it is.
Its a fuck you to everyone who has abused me and my children.
Its a fuck you to all the lies, the illusions of care, fake friends and family.
Its a fuck you to everyone who turned away, including law and community.
Its a final statement and revenge for abuse. A little, final, sliver of justice.

They won't call it dignity.
But it is.
 
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howtounborn

His life was for no one and nothing
Dec 9, 2024
9
I feel it in a slightly different but similar way.

I do not hate myself or my actions in life, what I hate is how I've been treated by the universe. I am not dishonorable, but I have been given a life lacking dignity, so suicide is a way of taking it back. I do not accept this life of so much suffering, I will not stand for this. It is my answer to the universe, reasserting my dignity against it.
 
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deadgirlwalking

deadgirlwalking

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Feb 27, 2022
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Does this motivate anyone? Sometimes I see suicide as a way to keep or regain my honor. It says, "I will not accept this!"

"I would never do what I did. I would never say what I said. I'm better than this and would have lived a very different life."

Sort of a sepukku kind of motivation. Suicide proves that I see myself as unacceptable, and thereby ties me to a higher perspective. The one [who] kills me is more worthy of respect than the one who lives like this.
Suicide is the ultimate form of rebellion and protest. I shouldn't have to accept a life i never consented to in the first place. I never constented to being raped and molested as a child, i never consented to being in a life full of bullying and misery, i never consented to any of this. My family specifically loves to remind me how burdenous my existence is by making passive aggressive remarks and jabs at my expense, why wouldn't I relieve them of that burden?
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Warlock
Mar 16, 2025
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More like to keep whatever honor and dignity i have left.
 
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