Kokonoe
Worthless, Broken Doll
- Apr 20, 2023
- 56
i want to die. no wonder i always feel like i can't get rid of her. no wonder i always felt so helpless and stuck. no wonder i felt so much dread and despair about not being able to change anything. that's all she wanted. i can't believe i ever respected her or cared about her.
it always felt like as long as i just listened to her things would get better and i just had to stop trying to do anything for myself and just trust her. but nothing ever got better. im still just as miserable and still suffering. but i just have to keep doing nothing and trusting her...that's what she wanted, too. for me to give up on anything else. i hate it. i hate it so much. i can't respect her at all anymore. i never want to see her again.
it always felt like as long as i just listened to her things would get better and i just had to stop trying to do anything for myself and just trust her. but nothing ever got better. im still just as miserable and still suffering. but i just have to keep doing nothing and trusting her...that's what she wanted, too. for me to give up on anything else. i hate it. i hate it so much. i can't respect her at all anymore. i never want to see her again.
