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femcelloser

femcelloser

Transgender thing
Jan 18, 2025
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Ignore this if you want I'm mostly just gonna scream about something that happened earlier

My mom's pretty fucked up. She had a bad childhood and she ended up pretty messed up from it. She's also beat the fuck out of me at a young age and screamed at me about how much of a disappointment I was to her. Anyways. I hate her guts. But I still live with her. She's chilled out a bunch since then. She's mostly just a scared worrisome middle aged lady now. Of course I have unresolved trauma through the roof. But she's under the impression I've completely forgiven her, because I would like to just keep the peace between us

Anyways. I smoked a joint with her today and she randomly went into this bizarre rant about how awful her life was. As she does often (she likes to put her trauma in my face. When I was younger it was a way to show "see! I don't treat you badly! When I was younger I experienced this!!!". Now she's just kind of an attention whore lol. Today she went into this whole rant and mentioned some really fucked up stuff. How she was molested and how her sisters were probably raped by their dad. All while looking my way and making comments like "so if you think I was bad to you!! Haha!!" It fucking infuriated me. Who just springs off into some rant in the middle of us just trying to talk to each other for a few. I didn't say a word back to her. I stared at my phone the entire time trying to escape the situation.

I've never been so uncomfortable and disgusted and infuriated in my life. After she was done with her trauma dump I ran upstairs and kinda just crashed out I burnt the fuck out of my arm.

I really don't give a shit about her traumas. She's openly used it as an excuse for all the abuse she's caused me and I've heard about her mean dad and sisters since I was like 13. I'm just sick of her at this point.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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Yea she is awful person for guilt tripping you into making you feel invalid for the pain you went through. Who cares what is objectively more painful to go through, she forcefully created you so she had the responsibility of taking care of you and she failed at that terribly by inflicting this much pain and trauma onto you. She is scum for that and you own her no forgiveness for this, especially as your parent.
 
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