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CutePrincess

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It's weird to get this help that seems misplaced. Like my mum really try to support me like get me some psychological support, some financial aid but what I really want from her is to accept my decision. I don't feel like there's support that may make live worth living. It's like she's preparing nice baby room when I'm going to get abortion. I asked her if it really worth living if I'm struggling with mental health and unemployment all the time. She didn't want to talk with me anymore and it really hurt. I feel guilty for leaving a mother that can't let go of me and does everything she can to make my life more bearable.
 
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To be completely honest, I think it's normal for your mother to try to help you, I don't know the relationship you have with her, but I'd like to think that for a father or mother the thought of losing a child is extremely difficult
The fact that she wants to help you means that she cares, if you are completely determined in your action, I'd try to get along with her at least one last time
 
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I feel you
Many families do not understand or accept the pain
They prefer to exhaust every last resource to save you :/
 
YandereMikuMistress

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It's weird to get this help that seems misplaced. Like my mum really try to support me like get me some psychological support, some financial aid but what I really want from her is to accept my decision. I don't feel like there's support that may make live worth living. It's like she's preparing nice baby room when I'm going to get abortion. I asked her if it really worth living if I'm struggling with mental health and unemployment all the time. She didn't want to talk with me anymore and it really hurt. I feel guilty for leaving a mother that can't let go of me and does everything she can to make my life more bearable.
She knows your getting an abortion? Like you've stated that multiple times before she even got this baby room made up ?? Either way,, there's obvious love there from her but at the same time it's coming off selfish giving her already knowing your quite certain on having a abortion??? Like If she's pro life her
'help'
isn't really about supporting you it's about trying to push you toward a choice you've already made clear you don't want sounds like,, I can see why it hurts so much, and why it feels like she's prioritizing her own beliefs over your autonomy and that doesn't mean she doesn't love you, your feelings are completely valid just know that.
 
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CutePrincess

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She knows your getting an abortion? Like you've stated that multiple times before she even got this baby room made up ?? Either way,, there's obvious love there from her but at the same time it's coming off selfish giving her already knowing your quite certain on having a abortion??? Like If she's pro life her
'help'
isn't really about supporting you it's about trying to push you toward a choice you've already made clear you don't want sounds like,, I can see why it hurts so much, and why it feels like she's prioritizing her own beliefs over your autonomy and that doesn't mean she doesn't love you, your feelings are completely valid just know that.
It was just an allegory. I meant that her helpning me manage life when I opened up to her that I want to end it feels like it. Like she's so invested in making my life better when what I need is acceptence of my decision. I don't need her help with suicade but it feels wrong to leave when she's doing everything she can and it just feel weird to listen to her ideas when I know she's wasting time because I won't be there to benefit from them.
To be completely honest, I think it's normal for your mother to try to help you, I don't know the relationship you have with her, but I'd like to think that for a father or mother the thought of losing a child is extremely difficult
The fact that she wants to help you means that she cares, if you are completely determined in your action, I'd try to get along with her at least one last time
I'm just scared if I hide how I feel and pretend I'm invested in getting better and later she will face the reality that I left she won't be able to handle this. I feel like my father kinda understands me and he'll be able to handle my leaving. I just feel like I can't leave before I adapt her views so she will able to manage my suicade with at least some acceptence. I can't live for her but it's hard to cbt when she's in denial.
 
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