Poll: why do you want to die?

[Lowri]

If you've come to sanctionedsuicide you really mean business. I thought it would be good to have some quantitative information.

 

[skitliv]

Life is a rigged game in which I dont wish to participate, to say the least

 

[Tiburcio]

For sum it up as much as possible: I'm extremely tired, consumed and drained.

And somewhat abused.

 

[Smilla]

How about "all of the above"?

 

[anna]

How about "all of the above"?

same

 

[nuclearsnake]

Quite a few of the reasons fit me. I had a shitty childhood, was abused, am ugly, have no social skills and am trans and my dysphoria is killing me (my shitty country I loves gatekeeping so no HRT or surgeries anytime in the future and I'm already old as fuck).

I'm tired of fighting it all. Every day is endless torture.

 

[skitliv]

How about "all of the above"?

Yeah, that option is missing!

 

[Smilla]

How about "all of the above"?

Sorry I should edit to say that I am not physically "ill" but well on the way due to continued alcohol abuse.

No disrespect meant for those suffering from actual diseases.

 

[Tiburcio]

How about "all of the above"?

Yeah, everything except being physically ill.

 

[NoHope]

Pretty much all of the above. And things only get worse for me. :/

 

[Zanexx]

I have no place or purpose in life, I'm in a difficult situation, I was bullied, I'm tired, other reason
Voted other reason
Ill also if autism/chronic depression/OCD counts

 

[wanttodie]

I have no place or purpose in life i hate my life and living

 

[NoHope]

I have no place or purpose in life, I'm in a difficult situation, I was bullied, I'm tired, other reason
Voted other reason
Ill also if autism/chronic depression/OCD counts

I suffer from depression and OCD too.
For me they are debilitating and have caused so much suffering that I can't even function properly.

 

[Zanexx]

I suffer from depression and OCD too.
For me they are debilitating and have caused so much suffering that I can't even function properly.

My OCD involves washing my hands near constantly (I always carry wipes with my and clean my hands approximately twice a minute on average); hygiene paranoia relating to food etc.; feeling a compulsion to write down every thought that comes into my head, however mundane, which has been the case since I was a child: if I'm on a computer I create documents or similar and then save them or I have my phone with me all the time and use the notepad on there, or if I don't have access to either I have to use whatever I can find to write on (this is the only way I can cope with processing); the stereotypical having to touch things or do them a certain amount of times or in a certain order and the list goes on.

 

[Laggy]

I chose ill, but I don't mean physically ill.
Addiction, failure in almost every area of my life, laziness/lethargy, depression, absolute disgust with myself as a person, all contribute to my desire to die.

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Other reasons, for me it's half personal problems, half disgust with life and its structure. The fact that all is based on Luck and Looks, that people like you if you are goodlooking and you get all the perks and you have to climb a mountain if not good looking just to attain the basics of what a goodlooking person have, the lotery of birth, people being born in poverty and the injustice, aninal farming, this will always disgusts me even if my personal problems were solved magically.

 

[Why.]

I want to die because:

1. I'm ill
2. I have no place or purpose in life
3. I was abused
4. I'm tired

 

[Mona]

I've fallen in love with someone who I have no chance with, I've been mentally and physically abused. I have no one by my side except for a few friends. And I'm just tired of it all.

 

[deflagrat]

I am useless, suffering severe cognitive symptoms from schizophrenia and probably some other stuff I don't know about.

 

[creatureoflight]

Depression, physical pain, no doctor can help...sums it up

 

[Deleted member 847]

besides my own personal health problems (psychological and physical) I just dislike physical human life in general.

 

[DoneFighting]

I spent my 20s prepping for life. I was responsible, did what I was supposed to. Everything backfired. I abuse vodka and can't control it. I wrecked my relationship, pushed away friends. My asshole ex is trying to clean me out even though everything I have to show for my life was acquired before marriage .I'm sick of fighting my alcohol problem, sick of dealing with lawyers, sick of fighting my thoughts. I just want peace I just want to be gone. I've made many attempts, had all my guns taken from me when my boyfriend shows up randomly. Last attempt was Sunday I found my handgun while wasted finally got the balls to pull the trigger and it didn't go off. So now I'm here dealing with another week, putting my fake face on. I'm going to plan better next time.

 

[Ashpac]

Another option in the poll should be ''No quality of life'' thats what I have and it sucks.

 

[wanttodie]

I have no place or purpose in life i hate my life and living

all so for got to post I suffer from depression

 

[NoHope]

My OCD involves washing my hands near constantly (I always carry wipes with my and clean my hands approximately twice a minute on average); hygiene paranoia relating to food etc.; feeling a compulsion to write down every thought that comes into my head, however mundane, which has been the case since I was a child: if I'm on a computer I create documents or similar and then save them or I have my phone with me all the time and use the notepad on there, or if I don't have access to either I have to use whatever I can find to write on (this is the only way I can cope with processing); the stereotypical having to touch things or do them a certain amount of times or in a certain order and the list goes on.

I have similar compulsions. I have had OCD for 10+ years now (since I was a kid).
I also have to write down thoughts and take notes/lists, take long showers, touch/do things multiple times and everything has to be "just right" or perfect, etc., etc. I doubt everything and have a fear of making a mistake, I constantly have to reassure myself or ask for reassurance. I'm afraid that people find it annoying but I can't stop, it feels terrible.
It sucks. I have a lot of compulsions and obsessions, some of them come and go and some are impossible to get rid of. :(

 

[Destin]

I started repeating the phrase "I'm so tired" starting around the age of 13 anytime I was crying and wanting to die. I'm 25 now and it still resonates.

 

[shin]

Life is bullshit and I'm tired of it, I don't even care about my mental illnesses, absolute lack of friends, the shitty place I'm in, the big mistakes I've made or how mistreated I was, it's all pointless. I just want perfect nothing, forever.

 

[Tiburcio]

I started repeating the phrase "I'm so tired" starting around the age of 13 anytime I was crying and wanting to die. I'm 25 now and it still resonates.

I feel you a lot, I keep tired for more time I would like, now I'm completely burned.