PMDD and suicide ideation and depression

[TraumaEscapee:)]

Hi,

Does anyone else suffer severely with PMDD? I'm not regular with my cycles but each time before I get one I'm insanely depressed and suicidal and then suddenly I get a period ( very irregular sometimes only 4 a year) and I'm like "aaah that explains it" I'm going through a lot ATM anyway but anyone else suffer with this?

 

[JJ53]

I haven't been diagnosed with PMDD, but I experience many of the symptoms. My mood is generally low to begin with, and for about a week leading up to it, I also feel very suicidal. It's kind of annoying because each month, I try to prepare beforehand, but I always somehow forget and end up thinking, "What the hell is wrong with me?" Then, when the time comes, I'm like, "Oh!"

 

[TraumaEscapee:)]

I haven't been diagnosed with PMDD, but I experience many of the symptoms. My mood is generally low to begin with, and for about a week leading up to it, I also feel very suicidal. It's kind of annoying because each month, I try to prepare beforehand, but I always somehow forget and end up thinking, "What the hell is wrong with me?" Then, when the time comes, I'm like, "Oh!"

Same here and I'm also not diagnosed x

 

[uniqueusername4]

Yes, and it is awful. Even my obgyn said it isn't worth it to live when 1/2 the time is spent like this. sometimes it is so overwhelming that I get stuck in a depressive cycle for months. Overlaps with my ADHD emotional dysregulation and sensitivity dysphoria.

 

[iwanttohugthetrees]

Hi,

Does anyone else suffer severely with PMDD? I'm not regular with my cycles but each time before I get one I'm insanely depressed and suicidal and then suddenly I get a period ( very irregular sometimes only 4 a year) and I'm like "aaah that explains it" I'm going through a lot ATM anyway but anyone else suffer with this?

Hi, I have got pmdd
It is fun
Every cycle

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Hi,

Does anyone else suffer severely with PMDD? I'm not regular with my cycles but each time before I get one I'm insanely depressed and suicidal and then suddenly I get a period ( very irregular sometimes only 4 a year) and I'm like "aaah that explains it" I'm going through a lot ATM anyway but anyone else suffer with this?

YES yes yes, for years now. It's only gotten worse and meds did nothing, have you tried treating it?

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Yes, have it too! I feel like a complete different person on the days just before my period, I'm extreme suicidal and depressed.

 

[mistymoo]

I have pcos and it really gets to me. I have no doubt that when I finally ctb it'll be around my period

 

[lachrymost]

Several months ago I was convinced I had developed this. I was tracking my cycle and it really seemed like it. I have ADHD and developed PTSD a couple years ago, which are common comorbidities. I would get intense hyperarousal right before my period--shaking, sweaty, heart racing. The sweat was foul-smelling too, which seems hormone-related. The first couple months this happened, I thought I had somehow over-caffeinated myself to the point of sickness. Additionally, I would be absolutely assaulted with a salvo of "negative thoughts" that were seemingly impossible to turn off. My normal state is unbearable, and this was a whole new level of agony.

But my symptoms don't seem related to my period anymore, and I haven't gotten one of those intense faux-caffeinated episodes in a while. It's changed. It makes me wonder if that was my body telling me it's going to hit me with PMDD in five years or something. Hopefully it doesn't come back next month.

 

[Wolf Girl]

Yeah, I'm a completely different person for the 4 days leading up to my period.

 

[twolegs]

I'm not diagnosed but I relate strongly to the symptoms. It feels like my emotions are on a clock and they're predictable. It causes a lot of tension in my relationship and I have a hard time leaving the house or taking care of myself

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

Hey I'm late to the party but just throwing in my 2 cents. Go & get diagnosed & see what help is out there. Just do it.
I was diagnosed & it was life changing for me. Because of a combo of things, I was recommended a full hysterectomy which I can't afford. The only option I could manage on my own was to take the pill continuously- I don't recommend it for a million reasons if you're planning on living - it's a bad health choice.
But it is such an eye opener, so absolutely shocking. Now that I don't have cycles, it's so clear that I wasn't in charge of my emotions most of the time, that I was so far in the extreme, it was like being a victim to a body snatcher. I have never felt saner or more rational or more in control & less crying & less anger - it's honestly such a dramatic, dramatic change. I feel like a completely different person - not for a day, a few days, a week, it's the whole goddamn 28.
Full disclosure: I'm still going to CTB but that is unrelated.
But getting diagnosed & treated might be enough to help other people stay alive. You never know. At the least, you shouldn't be tolerating it. Good luck to all.