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Horrible_dumb_mfer

Horrible_dumb_mfer

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Jan 8, 2026
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Please it hurts so much. Everything hurts so much the pain is so much I just want it to be over already. This pain inside my chest, the reality I live in, I don't want to be alive for one more second, I hate it here I hate it. I don't have much at home, I could try drowning with a bucket, I could try cutting with a knife, but I don't have guns, please. Are there ways for me to kill myself with materials normally available in a household? Thank you very much in advance.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I'm so sorry. There's no such solution for us. We live in misery.
 
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1NSPECTOR

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Jul 24, 2023
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If you're THAT desperate any sort of ligature will work. GUARANTEE you'll be left alone for at least 30 minutes, I'd even say a few hours seen as you've not got time to practice making sure it compresses the arteries properly
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
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You might want to check the megathreads, they list off common methods and what type of equipment you'd need for them.

Any of the methods involving a blood choke don't require a lot of specialized equipment. You would require maybe an hour or two of uninterrupted time + a rope, sheet, or anything that can be wrapped around the neck and that can hold pressure. Just be aware that the risk of surviving with permanent brain damage is high if you make a mistake, so be careful if you decide to go through with anything.
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
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Check this thread:


That been said, I know it's probably not what you want to hear, but suicide isn't something to be rushed because it's permanent and because if you fail you'll end up in a worse position than before (e.g. your family finding out and/or getting brain damage, to name a few). You're new here and I don't know your story at all, just a heads up, don't take it the wrong way. Godspeed.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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If it was that easy, none of us would be here.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
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i'd be worried about trying to do it in an erratic manner and fucking it up. be careful. you don't want to survive with having done some type of damage to yourself.
 
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SymphonyOfSuffering

SymphonyOfSuffering

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Nov 19, 2025
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Pls take ur time and make a proper plan, rushed procedures can get u into far worse positions can get u in worse situations than u are in rn.
 
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urgent

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Dec 6, 2025
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I feel the exact same way. I'm in so much pain I'm desperate but like everyone said it's not easy and we don't want to survive with brain damage. I need to do it because of extreme physical illness and severe pain that can't get better so I understand the urgency and desperation but we are here for different reasons. I can't do most of the methods and wish I could scream out somebody km Read some methods and talk to people is unfortunately the only advice I have from someone else who wants to do it now
 
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Life's sick joke is us; death is the punchline.
Dec 17, 2025
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Worst thing would be if you fail ending up worse off, eg: brain damage, identity loss.
 
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justscoreit

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Nov 9, 2025
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You could maybe find a rope, but if you don't do it correctly, you might end up with a severe neck injury or might have prolonged pain before you die.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,004
I really understand, I just also find it so painful to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access painless, guaranteed death, I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option to just painlessly cease existing and never suffer again, I just always wish for the same, all I want is to be gone, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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Bungee_gum

Bungee_gum

"It's all a travesty, if you ask me"
Jan 8, 2026
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i'd be worried about trying to do it in an erratic manner and fucking it up. be careful. you don't want to survive with having done some type of damage to yourself.
same, its why i'll definitely use one of the safer and painless methods when i do ctb. really frustrating especially on days where im feeling particularly suicidal and want to end it right then and there
 
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