Placed order and paid for SN

[Rhaaz]

I'm so excited and it feels so surreal. Is it legal in the Philippines to have SN? Finally soon, an exit to suffering in the palm of my hands.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also really wish for a way to be permanently free from all the suffering of existing, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Rhaaz]

I have it already, delivered to location close to me, and oh, 450 grams is a lot than I anticipated. I'm feeling kind of thinking twice about everything: ending my life, leaving people, letting reality and others win over me as I accept defeat. However, I guess it feels good to have a way out. Only left is antiemetic, antacid, and painkiller.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Know the feeling of surrealism, mixed with unreality. Yet, it's all real somehow. All the best.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

I'm so excited and it feels so surreal. Is it legal in the Philippines to have SN? Finally soon, an exit to suffering in the palm of my hands.

I just got mine, I'm from PH as well. Yes, currently legal here in our country. Do check my recent thread. Maybe we can exchange messages.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

I just got mine, I'm from PH as well. Yes, currently legal here in our country. Do check my recent thread. Maybe we can exchange messages.

Forgot to mention that I also got Meto online delivered the same day with SN.
Here's the thread to my recent testing for SN
Thread 'SN blood test (South East Asia)' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-blood-test-south-east-asia.219746/

WARNING BLOOD

Just got my hands on 500gm ~99% purity SN from a chem dealer (Philippines). Since nitrite test kit isn't available at the moment, I did some crude blood testing to see if there will be a reaction similar to what's been published here and other sources. Here's some info:

Spoiler: Blood test

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SN Grains, white, solid, fine, crystalline powder.


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Test 1 set up

Drops of fresh blood dropped in a glass vessel with few grains of SN powder.

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Reaction to Test 1

SN readily dissolve in blood. Rapid conversion of bright red blood sample into dark brown colored blood (methemoglobinemia).


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Test 2 set up

Blood is dripped on a napkin, second patch of blood is added with very little amount of SN powder. Immediate reaction is observed and progressed to more regular blood being converted into dark colored product overtime.

Disclaimer: This test does not quantitative confirm the purity of the Salt from the Chem supplier; although I am convinced that this is at least 99% purity. The supplier did send comprehensive resources on the description and safety in handlings the specific product. Overall, a reliable source in my opinion.

 

[Rhaaz]

Forgot to mention that I also got Meto online delivered the same day with SN.
Here's the thread to my recent testing for SN
Thread 'SN blood test (South East Asia)' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-blood-test-south-east-asia.219746/

Thank you. And oh I didn't know you can get Meto online (assuming without prescription)? I would probably use Domperidone (Motilium), I've seen some online without needing prescription, and maybe I'll try my local pharmacy. Thanks for the mini test, maybe I'll try it. Any suggestions where I can perform ctb, maybe cheap city motels less than 400 pesos?

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Thank you. And oh I didn't know you can get Meto online (assuming without prescription)? I would probably use Domperidone (Motilium), I've seen some online without needing prescription, and maybe I'll try my local pharmacy. Thanks for the mini test, maybe I'll try it.

Hey, Rhaaz. Yes, meto technically needs prescription but I ordered mine without one. There are legit sites where you can order drugs and submit your prescription with your order. I don't have one, but I still tried since the website states that I can place an order without prescription and their doctor would call me (tele-medicine) to prescribe. I prepared some simple lies, but surprisingly, I didn't get a call. They just shipped the drugs. 7 pesos each. I ordered 10 tablets for 70. Shipping is 80 within the region. Arrived next day. Although domperidone is a good alternative too!

Any suggestions where I can perform ctb, maybe cheap city motels less than 400 pesos?

I went out today to visit two motels nearby, As****l and S**o hotel. As****l does have a 400 pesos for 10 hour stay promo but do try to inquire the availability for the promo. S**o offers 700+pesos for 12 hours. It's also important to note that rates are typically higher during weekends.

Edit: I believe you've read this now. I'll add some censors for better security
Let me know if you need more info!

 

[Rhaaz]

Hey, Rhaaz. Yes, meto technically needs prescription but I ordered mine without one. There are legit sites where you can order drugs and submit your prescription with your order. I don't have one, but I still tried since the website states that I can place an order without prescription and their doctor would call me (tele-medicine) to prescribe. I prepared some simple lies, but surprisingly, I didn't get a call. They just shipped the drugs. 7 pesos each. I ordered 10 tablets for 70. Shipping is 80 within the region. Arrived next day. Although domperidone is a good alternative too!


I went out today to visit two motels nearby, As****l and S**o hotel. As****l does have a 400 pesos for 10 hour stay promo but do try to inquire the availability for the promo. S**o offers 700+pesos for 12 hours. It's also important to note that rates are typically higher during weekends.

Edit: I believe you've read this now. I'll add some censors for better security
Let me know if you need more info!

Thank you so much. I've already ordered the meto too and paid for it, hopefully they wouldn't need to consult me as well. And I guess I'll just walk in to the motels as their prices online are expensive. I'm planning to ctb either this or next week with currently 75% certainty. Some final straw just happened in college, I missed my midterm exam on a major subject, my project group mates have been mad at me, etc.
I guess left thing to do is just throw my physical notebooks (where I write my thoughts, although I still don't know the best way to throw them), prepare my digital accounts and remove traces of everything my family might read, maybe share my story to this site (just to ask if I'm being too dramatic or am I really this despair), finish up the preparation for my ctb, and do it.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Thank you so much. I've already ordered the meto too and paid for it, hopefully they wouldn't need to consult me as well. And I guess I'll just walk in to the motels as their prices online are expensive. I'm planning to ctb either this or next week with currently 75% certainty. Some final straw just happened in college, I missed my midterm exam on a major subject, my project group mates have been mad at me, etc.
I guess left thing to do is just throw my physical notebooks (where I write my thoughts, although I still don't know the best way to throw them), prepare my digital accounts and remove traces of everything my family might read, maybe share my story to this site (just to ask if I'm being too dramatic or am I really this despair), finish up the preparation for my ctb, and do it.

I encourage you to do what you think would be helpful for your situation. If you don't have anyone to talk to, this forum is the best place to vent. I'm relatively new here and I'm eager to learn from others and contribute to the best of my capabilities. You are more than welcome to share your thoughts. I hope you find comfort and peace in which ever choice you make. Salamat!

Thank you so much. I've already ordered the meto too and paid for it, hopefully they wouldn't need to consult me as well. And I guess I'll just walk in to the motels as their prices online are expensive. I'm planning to ctb either this or next week with currently 75% certainty. Some final straw just happened in college, I missed my midterm exam on a major subject, my project group mates have been mad at me, etc.
I guess left thing to do is just throw my physical notebooks (where I write my thoughts, although I still don't know the best way to throw them), prepare my digital accounts and remove traces of everything my family might read, maybe share my story to this site (just to ask if I'm being too dramatic or am I really this despair), finish up the preparation for my ctb, and do it.

College sure has been one of the darkest era in my life that contributed to my overall declining mental health. Just like you, I missed so many requirements. Not everyone liked me, some did hate me and abused me in some cases.

You're smart to plan ahead on cleaning your digital traces. I plan on doing the same. I'll keep my account on this forum tho. I think my findings and experience can be of somewhat help to others.

Ingats!