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ihatethisplanet

ihatethisplanet

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Jun 21, 2023
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Hello, I'm new here. I'm a relative geezer at 47 and am likely getting divorced. My husband is too busy with his female friends to give me any of his time and on top of it, my beloved dog had to be put down two weeks ago. I am an only child with few good friends and my parents, as well-intentioned as they may be, just depress me and are never encouraging. My mother's pity for me about the divorce makes me feel so pathetic.

I've battled anxiety, spells of panic and depression for most of my life. I'm tired and there's nothing left here for me, so I'm considering CTB.

This is what I have available to me:

-20 hydrocodone 5 mg cough tabs left over from my dog. They do not contain acetaminophen.
-80 Klonopin 1 mg tablets
-60 Propranolol beta blocker pills
-60 hydroxyzine antihistamine tablets that can make you very drowsy
-15 Robaxin OTC (in Canada) muscle relaxants
-30 Zofran anti-nausea tablets

Would any of these or a combination of these do the job? I'm 5'7 and 127 lbs. I can't fail. Not only do I not want to be treated like a pariah if I survive, but I'd never be able to get Klonopin again and if I survive, I'll need it for my regular anxiety that is with me day in and day out.

Thanks in advance for any advice. I hate that we had no choice but to be born. I wish I never existed.
 
ihatethisplanet

ihatethisplanet

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Jun 21, 2023
72
Bump. Does anyone have any idea if these medications could do the job, either on their own or in combination? I don't think I could handle the other methods I've read about. 😕
 
Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

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May 10, 2023
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I'm so sorry about your dog. I don't know the answer to your question but encourage you to research these meds. ODing is generally said to be one of the less effective methods due to how safe most meds and readily available substances are. But again, I am not an expert.
 
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ihatethisplanet

ihatethisplanet

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Jun 21, 2023
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Thank you. I read 100 mg of hydrocodone could do it, but wanted other opinions. Maybe if I mix some liquor in and take a few anti-nausea tablets…🤷🏼‍♀️
 
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