throwawayghm
Member
- Aug 24, 2025
- 15
Alright so long story short I larp n shit and its the only hobby I can enjoy anymore and a couple of months ago I went to balkar a mil sim event passed out was left behind and was forced to drop out cus I was left behind and omw home I tried to jump off a bridge but pussed out
Cus reasons im going to another milsim event January 31st-??? The event name is frostfall i believe and I know i cant handle another repeat of balkar so I just made up my mind ahead of time
for whatever reson I cant do it and drop out ill ctb and call it as I cant succeed in smth to literally save my life im fucked anyway
If I make it through the event ill push suicide into the back of my mind and forget about it
The goal of this is to push me to actually finish something and not fail im tired of failing and never being enough
So frostfall is 80 days plenty of time to prepare so im either going to do weekly or bi weekly updates for encouragement ig or just to keep track or how much ive done and what not idk
Wish me luck
Cus reasons im going to another milsim event January 31st-??? The event name is frostfall i believe and I know i cant handle another repeat of balkar so I just made up my mind ahead of time
for whatever reson I cant do it and drop out ill ctb and call it as I cant succeed in smth to literally save my life im fucked anyway
If I make it through the event ill push suicide into the back of my mind and forget about it
The goal of this is to push me to actually finish something and not fail im tired of failing and never being enough
So frostfall is 80 days plenty of time to prepare so im either going to do weekly or bi weekly updates for encouragement ig or just to keep track or how much ive done and what not idk
Wish me luck
