Discussion Ok so maybe i ctb today

[SapoMotoqueiro]

I lied on my last post lol, today i have the chance of ctb i dont know if i should make tests to be sure how to do it and let it for another day (who knows when i will have) or i just rush (i have a good amount of hours if i fail but still, if they suspect i am fucked). i will hang myself so no trouble. at the same time i am scared, i am also happy of just having a day for me.

Good day/night for who is reading :)

 

[darksouls]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[fedup1982]

Hanging is an awful way to go. Would not recommend

 

[SapoMotoqueiro]

I know but there is no high place here and no way to poison myself, i cant get sn and if i managed to get it wont arrive today :/

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in what you decide.

 

[Audrey.2025]

Are

I lied on my last post lol, today i have the chance of ctb i dont know if i should make tests to be sure how to do it and let it for another day (who knows when i will have) or i just rush (i have a good amount of hours if i fail but still, if they suspect i am fucked). i will hang myself so no trouble. at the same time i am scared, i am also happy of just having a day for me.

Good day/night for who is reading :)

Are you still here?

 

[sleepingowl55]

Hanging is an awful way to go. Would not recommend

why?

 

[SapoMotoqueiro]

Are

Are you still here?

Yes, i will just chill and make people trust me when alone, makes more sense
Funny because when i am not at my home i feel despair but when i am it seems i can deal with life

 

[Audrey.2025]

Yes, i will just chill and make people trust me when alone, makes more sense
Funny because when i am not at my home i feel despair but when i am it seems i can deal with life

Thanks. I am also planning to ctb by hanging sometime soon. Just wanted to know how it feels in the day. Is it nerve wrecking? Or are you at peace?

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain and feel desparate. I understand your feeling but I just want you to remember it's not a shame to give yourself enough time to prepare everything you need and feel ready. No matter what decision you take, I hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[SapoMotoqueiro]

Thanks. I am also planning to ctb by hanging sometime soon. Just wanted to know how it feels in the day. Is it nerve wrecking? Or are you at peace?

It was nerve wrecking when i was deciding if i really should do it, but i am so scared to fail that i gave up for now, but i am training here, it makes me feel calm but not confident, the rope i have is not that good but do the work (already tested) and aroud here nobody sell a fucking good rope, i contacted so many shops and none have, amazing!

Overall, when doing it, its better be calm, which is too much to ask, i know, but less chance of forgeting the basics. i remember the times i was desperate i didnt remebered what knot i should do, i could just go search but since i was dazed i would make something impulsive that wasnt on the plan and people would go see what was.

 

[Audrey.2025]

It was nerve wrecking when i was deciding if i really should do it, but i am so scared to fail that i gave up for now, but i am training here, it makes me feel calm but not confident, the rope i have is not that good but do the work (already tested) and aroud here nobody sell a fucking good rope, i contacted so many shops and none have, amazing!

Overall, when doing it, its better be calm, which is too much to ask, i know, but less chance of forgeting the basics. i remember the times i was desperate i didnt remebered what knot i should do, i could just go search but since i was dazed i would make something impulsive that wasnt on the plan and people would go see what was.

I have decided to ctb recently and it is nerve wrecking. But also calming in some sense. I will suffer till/while I do it, but afterwards the mental agony will end. And I am not talking about the physical pain at all. As long as there are no chances of backing out, I don't mind the pain.

 

[Eriktf]

Hanging is an awful way to go. Would not recommend

its not instant but its not painful

It was nerve wrecking when i was deciding if i really should do it, but i am so scared to fail that i gave up for now, but i am training here, it makes me feel calm but not confident, the rope i have is not that good but do the work (already tested) and aroud here nobody sell a fucking good rope, i contacted so many shops and none have, amazing!

Overall, when doing it, its better be calm, which is too much to ask, i know, but less chance of forgeting the basics. i remember the times i was desperate i didnt remebered what knot i should do, i could just go search but since i was dazed i would make something impulsive that wasnt on the plan and people would go see what was.

there are no rush in this do it when you are ready

 

[fedup1982]

its not instant but its not painful

I've tried it and painful isn't the right word. It's so unpleasant though there are no words to do it justice. Anyone who plays down the level of suffering it causez ... should be hung

 

[strawberry931]

I've tried it and painful isn't the right word. It's so unpleasant though there are no words to do it justice. Anyone who plays down the level of suffering it causez ... should be hung

I have read from several reputable sources that compressing the arteries will make you unconscious in seconds or minutes. While unconscious you would not feel anything. Something that can go wrong though is compressing the trachea which would lead to suffocation and would be very unpleasant. Are you willing to share more about your experience and what you felt?

 

[fedup1982]

I have read from several reputable sources that compressing the arteries will make you unconscious in seconds or minutes. While unconscious you would not feel anything. Something that can go wrong though is compressing the trachea which would lead to suffocation and would be very unpleasant. Are you willing to share more about your experience and what you felt?

Repeatedly here's what happened on each attempt: I passed out then bam I'm back and with the most unbearable urge, had to break free. Thankfully I gave myself an out or if have had to suffer that until I died. I'm glad I did and that's saying something given how much I've always wanted to die. Hopefully one day I'll find a better method. I believe that people that say the method doesn't involve much suffering have NO IDEA what they're talking about. I'd sooner knife myself in my neck or jam pencils through my nose into my brain than hanging. Just because a bunch of people go around saying the method doesn't involve suffering DOES NOT make it true. Take it from someone who has first hand experience