Venting no path forward

[interna]

im really tired. theres nothing to do about my life. even if there is a solution, which, there is... i know its meaningless. i wont pursue it and get better. i will die worthless.
i hate myself too much.
my friends and everyone is recapping their year, highlighting precious moments. i have no such thing. i lost everything.
happy new year.

 

[maylurker]

i can relate unfortunately

 

[interna]

god if only i had died sooner. nothing changes

 

[Deepdense]

How do you feel right at this moment?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

15 solid years since I lost everything. Hard to believe. Over 40% of my life has passed since and I have not become a better person. I should have killed myself back then.

 

[Dejected 55]

Yeah... unfortunately, right there with you. Everything fell apart on me over the last couple of years and I see no way to right the ship nor do I have any motivation to do so even if I did stumble upon a way.

 

[cakedog]

Happy NY

my friends and everyone is recapping their year, highlighting precious moments. i have no such thing. i lost everything.

I still think you can create precious moments, i don't think you're worthless although yeah i know that in the grand scheme of things nothing really matters but there's still precious moments that, tough ephemeral, can be treasured and appreciated
you don't have to be an outgoing/extroverted normie to experience them you can find them indoors even simple stuff like being on my computer or watching anime has made me feel better than i ever did outside or when i was surrounded by people

@maylurker
162 posts in 3 days
that's pretty impressive *tips hat*

 

[maylurker]

162 posts in 3 days
that's pretty impressive *tips hat*

rlly tysm spending so much time on ctb forum my dad would be proud of me

 

[interna]

How do you feel right at this moment?

bad. guilty. i know im echoing what i already said but i seriously wish i had died sooner..

 

[doomer]

Can relate. Only can go backwards

 

[kuroshimi]

I am just tired of world slowly declining and from the fact that I couldn't really enjoy life. Feel that the world is rejecting me.

 

[Deepdense]

bad. guilty. i know im echoing what i already said but i seriously wish i had died sooner..

Sometimes there's no other way to put it other than repeating yourself.