Discussion nightmares

[owarikigan]

i have horrific reoccurring nightmares every night, sometimes they're borderline traumatizing and sometimes i willingly submit to my insomnia because of it.

however, i also take a lot of inspiration from them. they embody and hear me well. sometimes i feel like i'd rather be in these nightmares than in real life because as much as i scream and claw out desperately it's as if i'm living through art that my subconscious is creating out of pain in my stead and it's very kind. i'm very interested in discussing dreams and nightmares, but it makes those around me uncomfortable and disinterested. it's strange to me when it's one of the most fascinating phenomenon that can happen to a human

there was one from a few weeks ago , where my close friend was on a site very reminiscent to this one except you were more free to share direct videos of various attempts. i was forced to watch them and repeatedly screamed in real life over their ,, freak accident nature. things such as being fullbody shocked or trapped in different dangerous objects and appliances, slashed, burnt. i don't know if i want to go too into detail.
i was helplessly freaking out in our texts in the dream and when i woke up i immediately started sweating and checking up on them, telling them how glad i am that they're here etc. i know they struggle a lot as well, so i hope i didn't come off as too overbearing.
oddly enough, the two nightmares i had before that were another loved one being severely endangered, and then another with myself.

more recently my nightmares have been about the harassment me and my friends are facing , , and ironically just went through this entire week, and today, and possibly tomorrow, ha ha . i feel horrifically lonely and unseen

i'm very interested in hearing about others' nightmares and perhaps even interpretations (if that's your thing)

 

[woofwag]

I totally get that. I have nightmares every time I dream too, although these days I don't dream as much because of my sleeping meds (thank god). My nightmares aren't really "interesting" beyond being strang interpretations of my trauma. My dad will do some bullshit, my mom will do some bullshit, I'll be hurt in some niche way, etc etc.

I think the last interesting dream I had was when I dreamed that everyone had infinite wishes, but I had infinite wish blocks. Idk really how that works, but I was able to pull them out of thin air with sleight of hand, and the wish blocks manifested as little strips of black paper. I think it kinda worked like the anime Future Diary (if you know it), but it was a dream so like, not really a consistent narrative.

The whole thing created a lot of paranoia about who would kill who, who would sabotage the other for power, and what they would wish for (or block) to get that. I have struggled with paranoia about other people being evil, as well as actually having people betray me, so I think it might have been some reflection of that tied in with fantasy elements. I did actually end up getting betrayed by people in the end who blew up some others in a quarry. Strange stuff. There's another one I had semi-recently that was kind of goofy interesting, but I won't dump about it unless you want to hear.

I think that's interesting that your nightmares have so much depth to them. My best friend has those too and gets some really detailed stories from his dreams. I like seeing what kind of strange shit our subconscious will blend up when most of our brain is shut off. Even though they're scary, I think being able to find some artistic value from them is beautiful. But I also think it is possible to get close to that kind of state when not dreaming too, and I don't think you have to be stuck in your nightmares to draw that out of your subconscious.

Sorry that's a lot lol. But I do resonate with this, and I hope maybe I can make you feel a little bit more seen.