Hello SS. I joined today, browsing the site while keeping my email inbox's tab open in the window, eagerly awaiting the approval notice. I've lurked here quite a bit before making the leap. I guess I want to share in the community more as I start approaching a decision about CTB.
I've read a couple of successful CTB threads here, and what I like about them is how... matter-of-fact they are? No real theatrics—just a calm, measured, acquiescent approach to death. I am, on that note, a very emotionally unstable person, prone to cycles of intense feelings and erratic behavior that has harmed both myself and others. This behavior/tendency has increased in recent years as my mental health has taken a downward spiral, and the logical/rational side of me that was formerly the larger part has now become the smaller. Maybe that is why I find comfort in the logicalish nature of the suicide threads I've read.
I am simply overwhelmed at what it takes to stay alive. I can't fathom how other people do it.
What made you finally create an account on here? Did you lurk before you did?
I've read a couple of successful CTB threads here, and what I like about them is how... matter-of-fact they are? No real theatrics—just a calm, measured, acquiescent approach to death. I am, on that note, a very emotionally unstable person, prone to cycles of intense feelings and erratic behavior that has harmed both myself and others. This behavior/tendency has increased in recent years as my mental health has taken a downward spiral, and the logical/rational side of me that was formerly the larger part has now become the smaller. Maybe that is why I find comfort in the logicalish nature of the suicide threads I've read.
I am simply overwhelmed at what it takes to stay alive. I can't fathom how other people do it.
What made you finally create an account on here? Did you lurk before you did?
hello you are welcome
