seulgibeqr
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- Mar 29, 2023
- 8
Just a vent not really looking for feedback Lolol
I'm living at my mom's apartment spending all day bed rotting and on my phone, trying to escape from my life. I should get a job, move out and live a normal life. I have this mental blockade that's holding me back, I miss appointments & back then, school. It's so fucking stupid. I'm always setting myself up for failure.
It feels hopeless. For a normal, mentally stable person this would be so easy. My situation is so ridiculous. I'd rather die than get my ass up and take care of stuff.
At the beginning of August I bought a rope for full suspension. My date was August 5th and obviously didn't went through with it. I ended up calling my dad, I vaguely told him that I wanted to end it. After talking to him for an hour I was okay, kind of. I was okay ish for the past month but I can't take it anymore. I have a new date, if I don't chicken out again I'll do it this month. October is out of question, I don't want to ruin my sister's birthday month.
Anyway, thanks for reading this mess hahah
I'm living at my mom's apartment spending all day bed rotting and on my phone, trying to escape from my life. I should get a job, move out and live a normal life. I have this mental blockade that's holding me back, I miss appointments & back then, school. It's so fucking stupid. I'm always setting myself up for failure.
It feels hopeless. For a normal, mentally stable person this would be so easy. My situation is so ridiculous. I'd rather die than get my ass up and take care of stuff.
At the beginning of August I bought a rope for full suspension. My date was August 5th and obviously didn't went through with it. I ended up calling my dad, I vaguely told him that I wanted to end it. After talking to him for an hour I was okay, kind of. I was okay ish for the past month but I can't take it anymore. I have a new date, if I don't chicken out again I'll do it this month. October is out of question, I don't want to ruin my sister's birthday month.
Anyway, thanks for reading this mess hahah
