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"I'm blue da ba dee dabba da-ee"
- Jul 7, 2025
- 64
My thoughts are so confused right now, I think I've completely forgotten how to write a coherent text..
About a year ago, I decided that I would use the hanging method because it is the most affordable for me. I plan to order a polypropylene rope, but I don't know which one is better to buy - 10mm or 12mm? I also plan to use noose knot.
Initially, I wanted to use the door handle, but I'm afraid that the handle in a cheaper hotel won't be as reliable, so using the advice from my other post, I'll use the door.
I probably won't be able to do it at weekend as I planned. But I really want to do it in September, so I'll probably move the date to the 20th.
I still have some details of the plan that are worth finalizing. Should I use these two weeks as an opportunity to lose some weight and limit myself in food? How much weight can an ordinary wooden door support?(Yes, I am very afraid that the door may come off its hinges)
I'm very lazy, and I've been putting off all these questions for a long time, and honestly, it's a little worried to think about it now. lol
I plan to send all the money to my mother before my ctb. This should be enough for cremation and some additional expenses. The hardest thing for me will be writing her a suicide note. The message will be sent automatically the next morning, after I decide to do this. And I'll probably also send a message to my partner and friends who might lose me due to a long absence online, but it probably won't be long messages.
Honestly, I don't want to think about what I'm going to write to them yet.
I probably won't eat for 24 hours before I do it. But, after I prepare the noose and the note in advance, I want to either drink alcohol or buy over-the-counter sleeping pills. I need something to calm down. I've never taken sleeping pills, so I don't know how they'll affect me or if they'll be too weak. Maybe alcohol would be a good option, because it makes me sleepy.
About a year ago, I decided that I would use the hanging method because it is the most affordable for me. I plan to order a polypropylene rope, but I don't know which one is better to buy - 10mm or 12mm? I also plan to use noose knot.
Initially, I wanted to use the door handle, but I'm afraid that the handle in a cheaper hotel won't be as reliable, so using the advice from my other post, I'll use the door.
I probably won't be able to do it at weekend as I planned. But I really want to do it in September, so I'll probably move the date to the 20th.
I still have some details of the plan that are worth finalizing. Should I use these two weeks as an opportunity to lose some weight and limit myself in food? How much weight can an ordinary wooden door support?(Yes, I am very afraid that the door may come off its hinges)
I'm very lazy, and I've been putting off all these questions for a long time, and honestly, it's a little worried to think about it now. lol
I plan to send all the money to my mother before my ctb. This should be enough for cremation and some additional expenses. The hardest thing for me will be writing her a suicide note. The message will be sent automatically the next morning, after I decide to do this. And I'll probably also send a message to my partner and friends who might lose me due to a long absence online, but it probably won't be long messages.
Honestly, I don't want to think about what I'm going to write to them yet.
I probably won't eat for 24 hours before I do it. But, after I prepare the noose and the note in advance, I want to either drink alcohol or buy over-the-counter sleeping pills. I need something to calm down. I've never taken sleeping pills, so I don't know how they'll affect me or if they'll be too weak. Maybe alcohol would be a good option, because it makes me sleepy.
